crave

one hundred nine

"so today we honor everyone we lost two days ago. the students, the professors, the great wizards and witches, everyone. we honor their bravery and sacrifice, we honor their fight. but most importantly, we honor the memories they left behind. everyone lost someone that day, everyone lost someone that they cared so deeply about. but we have to remember, that they fought, and they fought for a reason. and they won. we won. he's gone. we don't have to worry. and that is thanks to every single person we lost that day, every single life sacrificed. so we thank each and every fallen person, and we thank everyone that lived. and as i close off this memorial, i just want to say a special sorry to each and every one of you for your losses" the person running this giant memorial speaks.

i keep my head low, looking at the ground. my hand shakes slightly, it hasn't stopped since my father cursed me and i'm afraid it won't. but draco holds it tightly, trying to stop it as he stands right beside me. i haven't slep at all, the images from the war running through my head everytime i close my eyes. i've stayed at the manor, not stepping outside until today. to honor everyone we lost. my body still aches from the curse, but draco has gotten a bath ready every night, and helped me calm it down. he's taken care of me.

"are you ready to go" he whispers as everyone starts to spread out, i nod.

we get back to the manor and i sigh as i sit down in the kitchen, he sits in front of me and grabs my hand. "you okay" he asks and i nod "thank you for everything, draco" i say and he shrugs "of course" he sighs. "i got you something" he says pulling a box out of his jacket. "when, i've been with you all day" i laugh and he shrugs "i'm just good like that" he winks and i smile.

he hands me the box and i sigh as i unwrap it, i pull out a ring box and open it. a promise ring. "why'd you get me this" i ask as i pull it out "it's a promise, that i'm going to marry you when everything starts to settle. and i'm going to buy that big but not too big of a house with a giant library. it's a promise that i'm going to be with you forever" he says looking at me. i smile as i put it on my finger "i love you" i sigh as i wrap my hand in his. "i love you too" he says and i smile.

"i'm going to be okay, draco" i say and he nods "i know you are" he smiles as he kisses my hand.

"we're home" draco's mother echo's through the house, he smiles as he stands up and we both walk to meet them at the door. "how was the memorial" narcissa asks as she walks in "it was beautiful" i say and she smiles. "come help me put this things away" she says and i laugh. me and draco follow her into the kitchen and start to help put the food away.

"is that an engagement ring" she gasps as she notices my hand, i laugh as i look at draco. "it's a promise ring, mother. but don't worry, it'll be an engagement ring soon" he winks and i roll my eyes. narcissa smiles as she looks at me "how's that hand shaking" she asks and i shrug "still won't stop. but it's not as aggressive" i say and she nods "it should go away soon, don't worry about it" she says and i nod. "thank you" i say and she smiles "you two go get cleaned up for dinner" she says and i nod.

me and draco walk up the stairs to his room and i smile as he shuts the door, "elizabeth malfoy, i think it'll sound good" i say and he smiles "you want to take my last name" he says, surprised. "yeah, why not" i laugh and he shrugs as he smiles at me "i just-i think it sounds perfect" he says, kissing me.

he pulls away and looks at me, "shower with me" he says, doing that cocky eyebrow raise. i roll my eyes as i push him away "you're a creep" i laugh. for the first time in a while, i'm not thinking about the war, i'm thinking about me and draco.

i'm thinking aboout everything we've been through. from first meeting that day at the train station, hating eachother, to him saving me from my father, and then loving each other. loving each other with every bone in our bodies. giving each other our everything. he gave me his everything. every second of every day, he was mine and i was his. and i'm happy with that. i'm happ with him. i feel safe with him. i feel loved.

"you don't have to call me a creep everytime i say anything" he laughs and i look at him "you were being a creep, what else am i supposed to say" i laugh and he shrugs. "i don't know, maybe 'sure, draco, let me shower with you'" he says and i shake my head. "you're delusional" i roll my eyes as i open the wardrobe to pull out clothes to change into.

he wraps his arms around my waist from behind me and pulls me closer to him. "am i? or am i just going off how you used to beg for me to fuck you" he says and i roll my eyes "shut up" i laugh and he kisses my cheek. "i love you" he laughs as he spins me around and pulls me to him, hugging me now. "i love you too" i say, wrapping my arms around.

i lean my head on his chest, taking in his scent, appreciating the feeling of his arms around me. this is it. this is my happy place. this is where i'm meant to be. forever, in draco's arms.