crave

seventy-nine

another week passes, a week full of avoiding draco and fighting the urge to beat the fuck out of pansy. i've seen him with other girls. every day. it's broken me down, piece by piece, as if i'm a puzzle that he put together and now he's taking me apart. my nights have been filled with alcohol and laughter. though, once the laughter fades and i'm finally alone, everything comes rushing back. and that's when i start to get angry at myself for letting him go, for saying we needed a break. that's when i start to take the puzzle apart.

the music blares in my ears, another party, another place to see draco with another girl. "i'll go get you a drink" blaise says and i shake my head "i'll get it, thank you though" i say and he nods as he walks over to the dance floor to get in the middle of a group of girls. i make my way over to the table and pour myself the strongest drink i can. my eyes scan over the crowd, looking for him. and there he is. he sits in the leather chair, in his black suit. he sits with his legs spread, to show power, dominence. a girl sits on the arm of the chair, his arm around her waist as he looks up at her. disgusting.

as i turn my head i see brandon walking through the crowd. my usual fear of him fades as i realize, two can play at this game. i slowly push myself off the table after downing my drink and i walk over to brandon. "elizabeth, surprised to see you beside me" he smirks down at me as i grab his hand "dance with me?" i ask and he nods. i pull him over so i know draco can see us, petty but who the fuck cares? hespins me around so my back is to him. his hand slithers onto my waist, pulling my hips closer to his. it feels wrong but i won't stop. he looks down at me as i lean my head against his chest, our bodies moving with the music.

*draco's pov*
my eyes burn holes in the two of them. his eyes staring at her with pure lust, his hands roaming her body. her hips move against his as she stares up at him, not caring that he's drugged her once. the girl i had on my side minutes ago is gone, left when she noticed me staring at elizabeth. but how could i not? she's gone to brandon of all people.

he turns her around and puts his lips on hers, it's like fire runnign through me. he doesn't deserve the sweet feeling of her lips on his. he needs to learn to keep his hands off what doesn't belong to him. though, she doesn't belong to me either. yes she does, what am i saying? elizabeth is mine. she'll always be mine.

"what the fuck" i'm snapped out of my trance and suddenly i'm in front of brandon and elizabeth. his nose bleeding and her looking up at me. i look down at my hand, bruised just like hers. "what the fuck was that for" brandon yells and i look at him. "keep your hands to yourself" i spit and elizabeth looks at me. her eyes staring into mine almost break me right int he middle of the room. her eyes that i love so much, the eyes i could get lost in a million times a day.

"come on" she says, grabbing my hand and pulling me off to her room. the door shuts behind us and she looks at me "you can't do that, draco. you can't just all of a sudden care, alright? what, you can go around fucking every girl in the school but i can't have a little fun" she yells at me "don't act like you didn't do anything about it" i shoot back at her and she shakes her head. "you don't get to switch up like that. it's either you want me or you don't. it's not you only want me when to take care of your morning wood or when you have a nightmare. it's not you only want me when pansy is busy. you have to want me all of the time. you can't pick and choose" she continues and i shake my head.

"how do you not understand, elizabeth? you're the only thing i want. every second, every hour, all of the time. it's you. it's always you. i don't give a fuck about anything else, you're the only thing i truly fucking care about and you go and do this? you go and makeout with fucking brandon of all people, right in front of my face. i used to dread every morning that i had to get out of the bed and leave you behind. i hated every night that i left alone. i hated that fucking look on your face when you thought you didn't matter to me. but elizabeth, you're the only fucking thing that will ever matter to me. you consume my life and i love every second of it. i'm so obsessed with you, how can you not see that? i'd destroy the whole world if it meant i could be with you forever, elizabeth" i yell back, the alcohol that i consumed earlier taking over every word. but still, none of its a lie.

"you've already fucked half the school, how am i supposed to fucking believe that" she yells back at me and i shake my head "none of them are like you, elizabeth. i only did it to get you out of my mind. i was fucking miserable without you" my words echo and she looks at me "why now? why after i've already ended things would you care so much" she laughs. "don't you dare say i didn't care for you. i've cared for you since the first day i fucking saw you. that's all i've ever done, is care" i yell back and she sighs.

the silence between us grows as we just look at eachother, both of us realizing that we're just fighting over how much i actually love her. the silence allows me to finally realize the mess of her room. the shattered mirror, the broken glass everywhere, the clothes thrown in the floor, books, this must have been what happened the other night.

"elizabeth, you have to believe me when i say that you are the best thing that has ever happened to me. you showed me happiness. love. so i don't care if you want a break or if you want to completely get rid of me, because you're not. you're mine, elizabeth. and i'm yours. you own me, elizabeth, every part of me, every side of me, every emotion, it's all yours. you're not allowed to walk away anymore, elizabeth" i say and she looks at me "i don't want a break anymore. i love you, draco" she sighs and i nod. "we'll be alright, elizabeth" i sigh as she walks closer to me. my arms wrap aorund her, finally able to feel her skin against mine, to be able to take in her scent. i pull away and place both my hands on the side of her head, pulling her mouth closer to mine. as our lips touch, i appreciate every second of it. taking it all in before pulling away. "i have a mess to go clean up thanks to you, meet me for breakfast tomorrow" i say and she nods as i walk out. finally, i have my elizabeth back.