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ninety-seven

a/n: sorry for all the time skips but i don't want it to get boring and just a whole bunch of sadness. so yeah.

after 2 months, i get myself together. i realize, it's not my fault, it's his. he's the one that didn't tell me what's wrong, we could have fixed things. so i stopped blaming myself.

i'm still paranoid, but not as bad. i'm able to walk around, get out of my room.

of course i think i about draco, all of the time, i miss him. but i can't do anything about it. so i stopped lying in my sorrow and got up. i cleaned, every day, non stop. i wanted to dye my hair, but then decided no, i love my hair color, so i cut it. i stopped picking at my nails. i got everything together. i even decided to go to hogwarts again, it's what i've alwasy wanted. but this time, no distractions. just school. apparently i got my second chance, no one ever came to give me a mark. it was a sign, to get my shit together. and i did.

*draco's pov*
i try not to think of elizabeth. which is hard, because that's all i ever want to think about. but if i do, then it distracts me. and i have to be focused. focused on how to fix the cabinet. on how to kill dumbledore.

i wonder if she misses me, or if she was able to get over me. like she thinks i did to her. i never will though. nobody can ever get over a girl like elizabeth. i just hope she sticks to her word, not coming to hogwarts, because i don't think i could get over her while she's right in front of me. right infront of me, moving on.

*elizabeth's pov*
i step onto the train, head held high, looking better than i ever have.

i start my walk to the back, where all the empty seats usually are. and that's when i see him. and freeze. draco stand with blaise and pansy, talking in the middle of the aisle. i want to scream. i want to tell him how much of an ass he is for doing what he did. but i stop myself, remember elizabeth, it's his fault.

i let out a breath, knowing i have to pass them to get where i need to go.

continuing to walk, i make it to the three of them. "i need to get through here" i say, my head still held high, and a smug look on my face. draco looks at me, and it's as if he freezes too. he most likely thought i wasn't coming, since that is what i said in the letter i sent him two months ago.

he just stares at me and i want to hit him, how could he just stand here and look at me? after what he did? "go ahead" pansy interrupts the awkward stare and moves out of the way. "thanks" i say as i walk passed, trying not to pay attention to draco.

i can feel his eyes staring at me, watching me, but he doesn't say anything. he doesn't say he's sorry. he doesn't try and apologize. he just stares. is this hard for you now, draco? now that you know what you lost? it was so easy when you couldn't see what you were doing to me. but now it's hard. good.

*draco's pov*
"i need to get through here" her voice, it makes my heart race. bringing everything i've pushed away back. i turn and look at her, she looks amazing. she's cut her hair. god it looks perfect. her shirt slightly unbuttoned. her skirt short. but her eyes, her eyes are cold. filled with hatred for what i've done. i want to tell her i'm sorry. i wan't to tell her why i did it. i want to tell her everything. but i can't. it's gone too far. i have to fix the cabinet. i have to kill dumbledore. for her. for me. for us.

"go ahead" pansy saves me and moves out of the way. "thanks" elizaebeth's sentences are short, not excited as usual. not full of love. just short.

she walks passed us and i watch as she walks away, her head held high. she's okay. she got over me. good, it's what she deserved. she deserved happiness that was created by her, she shouldn't have to depend on me for happiness.

*elizabeth's pov*
as i sit down my tough mask fades away. i don't know why i did this, why i came back. no, i know. for me. to learn, to better myself. i can hang out with cam and esmeray, who i've told everything to over a letter. i'll be okay. this is what he wanted. for me to forget him. well, draco, how does it feel? to be forgotten.

"oh my god, liz, i missed you" caleb smiles as i sit beside the group at the table. "you look great, i love your hair" esmeray says looking at me "really making draco regret everything. he hasn't stopped looking at you since you sat down" kai laughs. "don't mention him, kai" cam says and i laugh "it's fine. i don't care" i say. though i do, i care. i still wonder how he was able to jsut throw it all away. but if that's what he wants. then i can't stop him. if he wants to be a memory to me, then so be it. he's just a memory. a reminder of happier times.

"well look at you, i'm proud of you. from the letter i got a month ago, i thought you weren't even coming" esmeray smiles and i nod "i'm okay, obviously whatever happened that made him want to end things couldn't have been stopped. and my father's put away. my mother is getting help. everthings okay" i say and she smiles. "well, here's to a new year, and a new liz, cheers" caleb raises his glass, we copy him and laugh as our glasses hit each other. here's to a new me.