crave

ninety-nine

"hey, liz, i'm sorry about last night, trying to get you to talk to draco" cam says as he runs up by my side. i laugh as i shrug "all fine, cam, it's just a touchy subject. you know?"

he nods as he slings an arm over my shoulder and walks with me. "esmeray wants to go out tonight, all of us. she wants to go shopping and to a big dinner" he says and i smile "alright" i nod.

as we walk i notice draco standing at the side of the hall, looking out over the people walking. my smile fades as i look at him. his eyes are more tired than i've ever seen, his hair isn't as neat as usual, his tie is loose. he looks broken. but why? he did this? or is something else going on? i want to run to him and ask him whats wrong, talk to him. because if you don't ask, he won't talk. and even if you do ask, he usually won't. but he talked to me. he told me how he felt.

cam's hand slightly hits the side of my face, turning my head away from draco. "stop staring at him, remember you're done" he says and i sigh as i look at him and nod.

*draco's pov*
i watch as elizabeth and cam walk down the hall, his arm around her. i keep my head low, so she doesn't know i'm watching, though i know she can feel me watching.

she notices me, her eyes analyzing me, i can feel it. i wish i could tell her i didn't want any of this. i want her.

i watch as cam slaps the side of her face, he shouldn't touch her like that, she doesn't have to listen to him. i should kill him. taking whats mine.

no, draco. she's not yours anymore. she can be his. though, she doesn't look at him like she looked at me. she doesn't look in love, so perhaps he's just looking out for her. he shouldn't have to protect her from me. i shouldn't hurt her so much that she can't even look at me.

it's funny, i always feel like i could kill someone, for elizabeth. to protect her. but i can't even stomach haven't to kill dumbledore. or how many people are going to get killed with voldemort's plan. god i wish i could warn elizabeth. what if she gets hurt and it's my fault. i won't be able to live with myself.

*elizabeth's pov*
"buy it, that's so cute" esmeray tries to encourage me to buy the shortest, black, dress ever. but all i can think about is what draco would think of me in it. he would love it.

"fine" i smile as i put it in my bag. i walk around until i make it to the jewelry counter. the same place i bought draco's ring. i spot the one he got me also, i sigh. how did this happen to us? we were so happy. i was happy. 

"you alright" caleb pulls me out of my thoughts and i turn to look at him. "yeah, just thinking" i shrug and he smiles. "you should get this one" caleb points at a black ring that honestly is beautiful. "i can't go shopping with any of you anymore, you all try to get me to buy everything"  i laugh and he shrugs. "fine" i roll my eyes as i pick it out and smile.

after we leave we make out way to where we want to eat. kai ended up having to carry everyone's bags.

"liz, i think that dress will look great on you. i suggest wearing it to kai's birthday party" cam says and i look at kai "why did i not know your birthday was coming up" i say and he laughs. "it's actually today" esmeray says.

"what? why the fuck did no one tell me? happy birthday, kai, i should have gotten you something" i laugh and he shrugs "you can pay for dinner" he says and i roll my eyes. "you all are so annoying. except kai, i can't call you annoying on your birthday" i say and they all laugh.

*draco's pov*
i sit, looking at this fucking cabinet, thinking of elizabeth. thinking of her with cam. thinking of her alone in that house all summer. thinking of the letters she sent me, telling me how scared she was. and i wasn't there for her. all because of this cabinet. but don't worry, elizabeth, when this is all over, i'll tell you how much i love you. and hopefully, you'll still love me, because if you don't, this would have all been for nothing.

"fuck" i stand up as i look at this thing, how am i even supposed to do this. why am i doing this? i've made progress but not as much as i should have. if elizabeth was here, i'd have it done. fuck, draco, stop thinking of elizabeth.

i walk out if the room of requirements and sigh as i see elizabeth and her group walking down the hall. kai carries all their bags, elizabeth laughs as something esmeray said. i notice the ring on her hand, i wonder if cam bought it for her.

she can feel me looking at her, because she turns her head to look at me. the smile fades, the sparkle in her eyes goes away. i'm the reason for that. for no more sparkle.

i turn my head, breaking the eye contact, she does the same. it's as if we never spent every night together, talking, laughing. it's as if every memory has turned i to a nightmare for her. and it's all my fault.