crave

seventy-eight

i look at my scratched knuckles and the broken mirror from my rampage last night. my room is destroyed, books lay thrown on the ground, my mirror shattered, clothes sprawled out everywhere. safe to say, i had to much to drink.

i sigh as i stand up and straighten my skirt before walking out. while i walk down the stairs i notice a familiar looking girl on the couch. she's the one that fucked draco that night of the party. she sits there so innocent, reading a book. it's as if all the sadness that has surrounded me has turned into a bubble of anger. so before i can stop myself, i'm pulling her off the couch by her hair. "what the fuck" she yells as i push her to the ground "go fuck somebody else's boyfriend" the words come out before i can stop them. before i can tell myself that he's not mine anymore, and it's my fault.

my hand collides with her face, pain going through my already injured knuckles. she pulls at my hair, trying to fight her way out from under me. but all i can see is her against him. "you fucking bitch" i spit as my hands continue to hit her face. "get the fuck off of me" she yells pushing me off of her and into the table beside us. "you're crazy" she says and i glare at her "i'll fucking show you crazy" i yell as i get up, again hitting her already bruised lip.

this time she hits back, a ring on her finger cutting my cheek. we both push at eachother until she's on the floor again and i'm on top of her. but before i can hit her again i'm pulled away. "go liz, get out of here" blaise says as he lets go of me, he looks at me and this time it's not a look that angers me. i sigh as i wipe the blood of my face and look down at the girl, her bloody mouth and bruised cheek make me scoff before walking away.

"holy shit what happened to you" esmeray says as i walk through the corridor, on the way to the bathroom. "nothing" i say as i continue to wipe the blood off of my mouth. my hands ache with every movement. "this doesn't look like nothing. what the fuck did you do" she asks and i stop as i turn to her. "she fucking slept with him" i yell and she looks taken back by my volume. "do you think she's the only one? the whole school knows he's been going through every girl he can. are you going to bloody them up too" she says, i assume in a way to get back at me for yelling. and that she did.

not only has he moved on, he's gone back to fucking every girl he can.

"i just might" i scoff as i finish my walk into the bathroom. i look in the mirror, the bottom half of my face is covered in blood but it doesn't seem to be any serious damage. i spit into the sink before cupping my hands to fill them with water. the cold water hits my face and i close my eyes. i lift my head and look at the mirror, most of the blood is gone now. my hands look horrible, bloody and scarred. nothing i can do for that though.

once i'm done in the bathroom i walk out, esmeray looks at me. she's been waiting the entire time. "i'm sorry, alright? but you can't just yell at me because you're mad at the world" she says and i nod "sorry." "now i'm taking you to madam pomfrey, you might need a couple of stitches" she says and i sigh as we make our way to the hospital wing.

*draco's pov*
i watch esmeray and elizabeth walk out of the hospital wing. esmeray looks fine, which means elizabeth is hurt. was she hurt last night when i could have helped her?

i analyze the marks on her face, the fresh blood on her cheek, this is recent. her knuckles are bruised and red, she got into a fight. she doesn't look too bad, so i'd like to see the other guy. i can't help but wonder what happened, until i see blaise and the girl from the other night walk out behind them. holy fuck. the girls lip is busted and her eye is swollen, her hands aren't as bad which means she didn't get many hits in. good girl, elizabeth.

"stop staring, creep" blaise says as he stands beside me, i didn't even notice he walked this way, i was too focused on elizabeth. "is she alright" i ask and he nods "liz got some really good hits in but i think she'll be alright" he says and i look at him "not the girl, dumbass. elizabeth" i say and he laughs "she's fine. if i hadn't have pulled her of of the girl she would have killed her. all over you" he shakes his head and i sigh. it is my fault but how else am i supposed to get elizabeth off of my mind? i just hope she doesn't find every girl or she might be put in azkaban for mass-murder.

*elizabeth's pov*
"so you really just pulled her off of the couch" cam laughs at lunch and i nod "yes. do we have to keep talking about it" i say and he shakes his head "no ma'am. don't want that happening to me" he laughs and i glare at him. "i'm just saying, it was badass. you should have seen her, nonstop punching her" blaise says, he invited himself to sit over at the table with us. i never said anything, i owe him for stopping me before i killed her. "i wish i could have" kai says and i roll my eyes "i have to go" i say and esmeray looks at me "you alright" she asks and i nod. but it's a lie, i'm not alright. i still can't get the image of her against him out of my mind. it seems to haunt me.

i walk into the common room and sigh as i sit down. "you just couldn't help yourself could you? you do realize you're the one that broke up with him, right" pansy's voice seethes from across the room. "shut it, pansy. before i do the same thing to you" i spit and she laughs "you can't get jealous because he moved on. what else was he supposed to do? sit around and sulk every day until you decided to take him back" she continues "i said shut the fuck up" i say, standin up. "woah, elizabeth. how would draco feel if you bloodied up his best friend" she mocks and i glare at her.

i can feel the burning rage building inside of me. but she's right, how would draco ever forgive me? she's his number one person. but the thought of that only makes me want to hurt her even more. "i'll fucking kill you pansy. you destroyed everything i had, he was the only fucking thing i had left and you fucking took him" i spit and she laughs "you think you ever actually had him? he's always been mine, elizabeth. i've always had him wrapped around my finger while he had you wrapped around his" she seethes and i can feel my hands shaking as if they're about to explode.

"you fucking bitch" i yell but before i can get to her i feel hands on my arms, holding me back. "not again, liz. don't let her get to you" blaise says as he holds me back "that's right. run away like the little bitch you are" she spits before walking up the stairs. "looks like you're the one running, pansy" blaise laughs and she flips him off.

blaise lets go of me and i look at him "wha the fuck do you want from me? why can't you just leave me alone" i snap at him and he sighs "i'd like to apologize, get on good terms with you. i realize what i did was wrong and i hope you can forgive me. i'm not coming onto you, i simply want to be your friend" he says and i look at him. "why? why now" i ask and he shakes his head "before everythign that happened between us you were a great friend, and i miss that" he says and i sigh. "i forgive you" i say and he smiles "finally. i mean i've saved your ass like twice today" he laughs and i roll my eyes. "you should have let me get to her. i could have at least gotten one good hit in" i say and he nods "i'll remember that next time."