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fifty-four

as i walk into breakfast i see draco looking at me, wondering if i'm going to sit with him. i want to. i want to be in his arms. but i still feel guilty. i should have known, i should have payed attention to what was going on. i should have known something was wrong.

i walk over to the slytherin table, people around me just look at me as i sit in front of draco. "good morning, elizabeth" he says and i nod. "do you want to talk somewhere else? people can't seem to mind their own business" draco says, glaring at some of the people around me.

i laugh as i nod "that would be nice" he nods as he stands up. i follow him out if the great hall and we sit outside. "how are you feeling" he asks and i shrug "confused. i don't know how i didn't realize something was wrong. i would never do that" i laugh.

"i know. i should have let you explain. we both made mistakes" he shrugs and i look at him "i went home. i expected my mother to be happy to see me, i don't know why. she never has been. when i got there, my father told me i wasn't welcome. threw the necklace on the ground. my mother told me how happy they were without me there. that's what pushed me over the edge" i admit.

"you could have talked to me" he says, placing his hand on top of mine. "you didn't want to speak to me, draco. you would have pushed me away" i laugh and he looks at me "how evil do you think i am? i never wanted you to hurt yourself" he says and i smile.

"i love you, elizabeth. give me the word and i'll kill brandon" he says and i shake my head "no need for that. it's over now. i'm okay" i say and he nods. i look up at the clock and sigh "i better get to cam and everyone before they think i'm dead" i laugh as i stand up.

he looks at me "too soon" i ask and he laughs. "so you're hanging out with cam" he asks, standing up. i shrug "yeah and a couple of his friends. they invited me sledding when no one else was talking to me" i say and he nods "but you don't have to worry about anything" i assure him and he smiles "i know."

i sit down beside esmeray and the group looks at me. "so, what was that about" kai asks and i sigh "i was drugged. brandon drugged me that night and draco knows. we're working in things" i explain and he smiles. "that's good. right?" esmeray says and i nod.

"we were thinking of going sledding again, you want to go" cam asks and i nod "of course. today?" kai nods "yeah, figured you could use something to keep your mind off things" he says and i roll my eyes. "can we stop worrying about me" i say and he shrugs "you could invite draco" caleb offers and i smile "i'll ask him. i don't know how he feels about sledding though" i shrug and he nods.

*dracos pov*
i know things with elizabeth aren't going to go back to perfect but we can work on it. i don't see brandon anywhere, lucky for him because the next time i see him i'm going to fucking kill him. i don't care what elizabeth says. he can't just get away with what he did.

what was that about" pansy asks, she's been on my side the whole time, and she made sure elizabeth knew. i hate that elizabeth lost pansy as a friend because of this. "we just had to talk about some things without everyone staring at her" i shrug as i sit down "and? are you two together again" she asks. were we ever apart? i mean, i know we stopped talking to each other. but i never stopped thinking about her. my eyes never left her body. "i think so, yeah" i say and she rolls her eyes "i can't believe you. how could you give in so easily" she scoffs and i look at her "she was drugged, pansy. she couldn't help herself" i explain. "do you actually believe that? why would brandon talk to freely about drugging someone? unless he wanted you to hear. unless she got him to do it" she tries to convince me.

she could be right, she has a point. but i don't think elizabeth would do that. i want to believe she had no choice. we have a lot to talk about, and we aren't going to be able to go right back to how we were. which is horrible because i think we were in a perfect spot in our relationship. but we can get back to that spot.

"i don't want to hear your stupid theories. stop trying to ruin this for me" i say and she sighs "whatever. don't come crying to me when it ends again because i'll just tell you 'i told you so" she says and i shake my head.

*elizabeths pov*
"draco, wait" i call out as i step out of my last class and see draco walking down the corridor. he turns and stops as he looks at me. i catch up to him and he laughs "what's the rush", i shake my head as i smile "i wanted to see if you would come sledding with cam, esmeray, kai, caleb, and me" i ask and he looks at me. "i don't sled" he shakes his head and i sigh. "please. as a way to get things going again" i try to convince him and he laughs as he stops walking and turns to me. he leans down so his mouth is inches away from my ear "elizabeth, my way of getting things going again is pulling you into the bahtroom over there and fucking on the sink. if you would like to do that, then sure. but i don't sled" he whispers and my breath hitches.

i think about the past times in that bathroom, they were perfect. but i can't bail on cam and everybody else. "nice try, draco. but i have plans. and if you're not coming, then i'm done here" i say and he shrugs. i turn to walk away but i get a few steps and he calls out my name. "just wait, i'll come. let me go change" he says, laughing as he rolls his eyes. i smile as he walks quickly to the common room to get changed.