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thirty-seven

"do you remember what you said last night" i ask draco as we both get dressed, he looks at me and laughs. "elizabeth, i don't even remember how i got back in here. so whatever i said, im sorry" he says and i laugh. "no it wasn't mean or anything" i say as i finish buttoning my shirt. "what did i say" he asks and i shake my head "forget about it" i say grabbing my robe. "no tell me, now im worried" he says and i look at him "you told me you loved me, draco" i laugh and he looks at me. "well, obviously i didn't mean it. i was out of my mind" he says and i have to say im a little disappointed but i expected it.

""oh yeah, i know i just didn't know if you remembered" i laugh and he shakes his head. "okay, i have to go. i told astoria i would meet her at breakfast" i say and he smiles as he looks at me. "see you after class" he says pulling me to him and kissing me. "or i might just pull you out of class" he says and i shake my head "no. im not fucking you in the middle of class." he rolls his eyes as he pulls away "you wont. i'll fuck you. and it wont be in the middle of class in front of everyone. unless thats what you want" he says and laugh. "fuck you, draco. i have to go" i say "thats exactly what im asking for" he laughs as i walk out.

i walk into breakfast and see astoria staring at the hufflepuff table, right at cam. i sit down beside her and she looks at me "he's an ass. don't worry about him" i say and she shrugs as she takes a bite of her food. "i saw you and draco go over to his room last night" she laughs and i shake my head "he told me he loved me" i say and her eyes go wide. "but then this morning he said he didnt mean it and that he was just drunk" i say and she shakes her head "do you think he loves you?" i sigh because i don't really know.

"do you love him" she changes the question and i look at her "i don't think either of us actually love eachother. we're young" i shrug and she shakes her head "i mean teenage love. the love that you think will last forever. the type of love that they tell stories about not serious adult love" she says and i laugh. "maybe" i shrug and she sighs again "do you think cam loved me?" i roll my eyes as i look at her "stop thinking about him, astoria. he doesn't deserve you" i say and she sighs. "astoria, its hard knowing someone isnt going to be in the next chapter. but the story must go on" i say and she looks at me "okay, fucking poet" she laughs and i shake my head.

*dracos pov*
"i told you that you were in love" pansy laughs, im telling her what elizabeth said this morning since she has her nose in my relationship. "im not in love, pansy. i was drunk" i glare at her and she laughs "well what did liz say? did she say it back" she asks and i try to think back but i dont remember. "i dont know. all i know is that this morning she said that i told her i loved her and then i told her that i didnt mean it" i say and pansy looks at me like im crazy. "what the fuck is wrong with you" she says "what are you talking about? what did i do" i ask confused and she rolls her eyes. "what if she said it back? and now you told her you didnt mean it. you're really an idiot sometimes, draco" she says. thats crazy, elizabeth doesnt love me. and she would have said something if i upset her, she has no problem telling me if i did something wrong.

"you're ridiculous. she was completely fine" i say and she looks at me "are you sure about that" she asks. i think about this morning, elizabeth seemed fine. nothing out of the normal. i still had a pretty bad headache so maybe i missed something. "yes im sure, pansy" i say and she shrugs "anyways, christmas break is in two weeks" she says and i nod "is liz going home" she asks and i roll my eyes. "i dont fucking know, pansy. what does it matter to you" i ask, annoyed that she keeps asking all of these questions while im trying to eat. "i figured maybe she could stay with you at the manor" she says and i roll my eyes "no. my mother doesn't even know of her. how am i going to just show up with her" i say and she shakes her head. "you're so confusing, draco. one second you talk of her like she put the stars in the sky and the next you barely give two shits about her. make up your mind, draco, do you want to be with her or not" she says. am i really that confusing? of course i want to be with her.