crave

ninety-eight

"you should go, show him what he lost out on" esmeray tries to convince me to go to the welcome back party pansy is throwing.

"i really don't think i should do that, it was so awkward when i saw him on the train" i sigh and kai laughs "you love parties, don't let him stop you" he says and i nod. "i dont know, i might" i shrug

"no. you are. i'll come with you" cam says and i look at him, that's REALLY not a good idea. or is it? showing draco that he doesn't own me?

"fine" i agree and he smiles "i'll see you tonight" he nods as they walk away, letting me go into the common room.

i walk in and stop as i see draco on the couch. go elizabeth. don't stop.

he looks up and me and i turn my head, continuing my walk to my room. ignoring how tired his eyes look, how messy his hair is, how broken he looks. as much as i want to take care of him, why would i? he wasnt there to take care of me when i was breaking. and i even told him i was, over hundreds of letters.

"elizabeth" his voice makes my heart stop, and my body. go, elizabeth. go. go. go. "i like your hair" he sighs out and i sigh as i fight the urge to turn around and run to him. "thanks" i whisper out as i walk into my room.

why? why now? why would he talk to me now after ignoring me for months? what kind of sick game is he playing? and when he finally does talk it's just 'like your hair'. fuck him.

*draco's pov*
i shouldn't have talked to her. i have to let her go. i have to work on this task. and i have to let her get over me. but i couldn't stop myself, i had to say something. i just wish it didn't have to happen like this. i just wish she knew i wasn't actually over her.

i walk into the room of requirement and sigh as i pull the cover off of the cabinet. though, what i came in here to do, seems impossible, because all i can think about it elizabeth. how she no longer smiles because of me, how she doesn't look at me with that sparkle in her eyes. how i've lost her. all because of a mark.

elizabeth would be good at this. she's good in charms and thats what im doing with this cabinet. i hate this fucking cabinet. it's ruined my relationship. it's ruined the only thing i actually cared about.

i give up in the cabinet today and walk out. i walk into the common room, forgetting about pansy's party. the smell of fire whiskey hits me and i cringe.

as i walk through, on the way to my room, i see elizabeth dancing with cam. her short hair makes her able to show off her shoulders. the short green dress, the one i love so much, shows off her body perfectly. but instead of dancing with me, she's dancing with cam.

it feels like fire running through me. she's mine. not his. no, draco. she's not yours anymore. you ruined that. so let her go. let her be happy.

she smiles as she looks at him, lucky him, getting to see her smile.

"take a drink and go, you're being a creep" pansy hands me a drink, snapping me out of my trance. i nod as i grab the drink and finish my walk to my room, wishing elizabeth was coming with me.

*elizabeth's pov*
i can feel him looking at me, staring. why? just move, draco, you didn't want me. so go.

"he's staring at you" cam laughs and i smile up at him "you could feel that too"

finally the feeling goes away and i look over to see pansy giving draco a drink before he walks away. thank you, pansy.

after a while of dancing with cam and just having a great time. i finally decide to go back up to my room.

"i had fun, thank you" i laugh as cam follows me in my room. "yeah, anytime" he says and i smile "see you tomorrow"

he sighs as he looks at me, "don't you think you should talk to him" he says and i laugh. "really? why would i speak to him? he blew me off. he dropped me" i say and he shrugs.

"maybe try and figure things out, figure out why he did it" i almost fall down laughing "don't you think i tried, cam? i wrote him everyday for a month, he didn't say anything. so i'm done trying to figure him out. and if you think i should feel any differently, you can leave" i shoot back.

he sighs and looks at me "i was just saying" he shrugs "just go. thanks for coming" i say and he nods as he walks out.