crave

seventy-one

"are you sure you don't want me to stay in here? it looks like the bruising is getting worse" i laugh as i look at draco's side. "i'm alright, elizabeth. it's not the first time i've been beat down by my father" he says and i nod. "i know, i just want to make sure you don't need anything. i mean you're always doing stuff for me when i'm not feeling well" i shrug and he looks at me "Just go, elizabeth" he says. "if that's what you want" i shrug and he nods "that's what i want. for you to go so i can get better and you don't have to see me like this anymore" he says and i sigh. "you know i don't car-" "just go, elizabeth, fuck. can't you see i don't want you here" he snaps and i look at him. have i over stepped now? too clingy perhaps? i've never been the clingy type but recently i have been "alright. i'll see you tomorrow morning i guess" i say and he looks at me "you aren't sleeping in here tonight" he asks and i shake my head "no, i'll give you some space" i sigh and he nods as i walk out.

*draco's pov*
i know what i've said hurt elizabeth and i didn't mean it. i just feel like she's seeing me as weak, as if i can't take care of myself. so she has to stop seeing me like that. besides, she needs to go spend time with esmeray and everyone else, she hasn't seen them all weekend.

"alright. i'll see you tomorrow i guess" she says and i look at her, i didn't mean i don't want to see her for the rest of the day. "you aren't sleeping in here tonight" i ask and she shakes her head "no, i'll give you some space" she sighs as she walks out. that's not what i wanted, elizabeth. i wish i was better at explaining things. the last thing i want from her is space. i want her with me all of the time, she just can't be with me right now. she'll see me different. how would she trust me to protect her when i can't even take care of myself?

"knock knock" the door opens and pansy walks in "holy shit, what happened to you" she laughs and i glare at her. "my fucking father" i say as i throw my shirt on. "that's what you get for missing the training. where were you anyways" she asks as she sits down at my desk. "with elizabeth" i say as i sit on my bed "you're always with elizabeth" she rolls her eyes. "liz" i correct her, even if elizabeth isn't here pansy needs to get it right. "why do you get to call her elizabeth" pansy scoffs and i shrug, because honestly i don't know why she's let me call her that for so long. at first it was just to annoy her but now it's like she doesn't care. "because i can" i say and she rolls her eyes.

"where is she off to anyways? i saw her walk out of the common room" pansy asks and i shrug "no idea. i just told her to leave for a moment. i hate her seeing me like this" i sigh and she rolls her eyes. "disgusting. she's changed you so much. it's horrible. you're so soft and bubbly now" pansy laughs and i look at her "i am not 'soft and bubbly'. just because i care for someone doesn't make me a different person. besides, even if she has changed me, it's for the better" i defend myself and pansy shrugs "just saying, the draco i know wouldn't be worried abut how a girl sees him. and he wouldn't cancel on his father for a girl" she says and i glare at her. "stay out of my business, pansy. i don't remember asking for your opinion" i remark and she laughs "i don't remember you ever having to ask for it" she says and i roll my eyes.

the door opens and elizabeth walks in "sorry, i forgot my wan- oh" she looks at pansy. i can see a flash of jealousy in her eyes before it disappears. "just coming to get my wand" she sighs as she reaches passed pansy and grabs her wand. she looks at me and i sigh, not really knowing what to say. i know how it looks, i told her to leave but let pansy stay, but i don't care what pansy thinks of me. i don't care if she sees me at my weakest moment only because i don't love her like i love elizabeth. i want elizabeth to see the best me, to love the best me. and right now i'm just not the best.

"you two have fun" elizabeth says before walking out quickly. "not going to run after her, draco" pansy laughs and i glare at her "shut it, pansy. what did you even come in here for" i ask and she shrugs "can't i just come visit my bestfriend" she says and i look at her "you're in the wrong room then" i say and she laughs. "fuck you- oh wait, that might break poor little elizabeth's heart" she mocks and i glare at her "it's liz. and shut the fuck up" i say and she rolls her eyes. "i'll see you later" she says before walking out.

i always feel like i should do more when pansy starts talking about elizabeth like that. but what do i do? i would never hit pansy. and i speak up and tell her to stom but what else is there?

*elizabeth's pov*
i get back from cam's room after spending time with everybody and i lay down on my bed. i sigh as i think about pansy in draco's room, it only proves that it was only me he didn't want around. but i can't say anything, or he'll think i don't trust him. and i do. it just hurts i guess. i mean, i have been with him a lot over the weekend but he invited me. he could have told me to leave at any moment.

i hear a knock at the door and i sigh as i stand up, "coming" i say as i walk across the room. i open the door and pansy looks at me "what do you want" i roll my eyes and she looks at me "hello to you too, liz" she glares at me and i shake my head. "anyways, i came to tell you that draco is going to be busy tomorrow, so don't distract him again. you already got him beat by his father, you don't need to distract him anymore. he's being smart, getting ready for his task and he doesn't even know what it is yet. so just let him do what he needs to do, he won't tell you but i will, give him space" she says and i look at her. "i don't think it's your place to tell me what draco wants. if he wants to say something to me, he can say it. so if you would, leave me the fuck alone and go find someone else's boyfriend to fuck" i spit and she sighs "don't say i didn't warn you" she walks away and i shut the door.