crave

twenty-eight

i smile as i look at the sleeping draco in the chair across the room. i told him he could sleep in the bed but he was worried he would hurt me. now that im out of the hospital wing i feel a little better. draco left while astoria visited for a moment, mostly just asking questions about me and draco. my answers were moslty 'i dont know' because i dont. i dont know what me and draco are. its obvious we both have an attraction towards eachother but could it ever go farther than that?

i sigh as i slowly pull my legs to the side of the bed. i carefully let my feet touch the ground, cringing as i stand up. i take a breath before slowly limping towards the bathroom. i quietly open the door and step in. i turn to myself in the mirror and sigh. i look disgusting. my lip is swollen and my cheek is busted. my eye has an ugly purple-blue around it. i sigh as i lift my shirt and look at the bruise on my side. "asshole" i whisper, i should have been able to fight back. i shouldn't have walked out without my wand. i shouldn't have kept egging him on. stupid, elizabeth.

i roll my eyes as i drop my shirt. "elizabeth, you're supposed to be resting" i jump as i turn to see draco standing at the doorway. "fuck, draco. stop being such a creep" i say and he laughs. "i was just looking" i shrug and he looks at me "you look good" he shrugs and i shake my head. "my face looks like a fucking blueberry" i say and he laughs. "come back to bed" he says and i nod as he wraps his arm around my waist and helps me back. "did i wake you up" i ask and he shakes his head "was never really asleep" he shrugs and i sigh.

i get back in the bed and grab my book "will you lay with me, draco" i ask and he shakes his head. "im fine in the chair" he says, sitting back down. "i can read to you" i say hoping it will convince him. "im not a child, elizabeth. i don't need you to read a bedtime story" he says angrily and i look at him. what the fuck is wrong with him?

"fine. i just thought you enjoyed it the other night" i say and he rolls his eyes. "i did" i continue talking but he ignores me, what the actual fuck? "whatever" i roll my eyes as i turn the light off and close my eyes.

*dracos pov*
what am i doing? this is what ive wanted. ive wanted to lay with her, ive wanted to hold her, but im scared of hurting her. im scared of causing her more pain. i know its stupid, how could i possibly hurt her by just laying with her? i would find a way. i always do.

"whatever" she sighs and the light turns off. she's trying, draco. she's risking getting hurt by her father to talk to you. she told astoria about you, draco. this is what you've wanted, for her to give you a chance and what are you doing? i stand up and walk over to the bed. i carefully lay down beside her, careful not to touch her. she rolls onto her side that isnt hurt and wraps her arm around my stomach. she carefully rests her head on my chest and i hope she can hear my heart beat. i hope she can hear what she does to me. i try to hold my smile back as i carefully wrap my arm around her. "goodnight, elizabeth" i breath out "goodnight, draco" she answers and there's no holding back the smile anymore.

*elizabeths pov*
i wake up, disappointed by the empty space beside me. i sigh as i force myself to get up and look at the clock on the side of the room. its passed breakfast. i see a note on the side table and groan as i reach out to get it. "elizabeth,
         i hope you slept well and weren't in too much pain. i won't be able to visit you any today so i won't see you until this evening. i left some breakfast on the desk, i didn't know what you would like so i brought everything. please be careful and get some rest, elizabeth
         draco"

i smile at the note and look up to the desk to see a plate of food. why couldn't he put it closer? i groan as i push myself off of the bed. i slowly walk over to the desk and smile at the plate piled high with different breakfast foods.

after eating and foring myself to shower i start to feel better, though my head still hurts like a bitch. i put the clothes i got astoria to get from my room on and grab my wand. i carefully walk out of dracos room and very slowly make my way down the stairs. "liz" i hear and i turn to see pansy "oh hey, pansy" i smile and she looks at me. "aren't you supposed to be resting" she asks "no" i lie and she laughs. "draco told me to make sure you don't leave the common room" she says and i roll my eyes "he shouldn't have done that. he doesnt control me." she sighs as she stands up from the table and walks to me. "have you ever heard of a love language, liz" she asks and i nod "why" i laugh. "draco's is protection" she says "draco doesnt love me, pansy" i say and she shakes her head "he cares for you though, liz" she says.

"draco feels the need to protect the people he cares about. no matter how much you tell him you dont need him to he still will. its almost his only way of showing love. so let him do it because he really does care for you" she says. her words make my heart 'melt' as some would say. "how do you know this, pansy" i ask and she laughs "draco is one of those people you have to know forever to truly get to know them. ive known him for what feels like forever. don't worry, im not out to steal him from you, and even if i was i don't believe id be able to" she says and i smile. "thank you, pansy. but can you just not tell him i left? i feel fine" i say and she laughs "from the way you walked down those stairs, i dont believe that one bit. but go ahead, dont be too long though" she says and i smile as i make my way out of the common room.