On My Own (TVD Series)

'Eonia'

Pulling on the threads inside of my jacket pockets, I treaded through the muddy steps in the cemetery until I reached the main trail underneath a street lamp. Catching the last few visitors exiting on the other side of the cemetery, Damon came up behind me in silence since we got out of the car. 

"...are you going to tell me where we're going?" Damon sighed.

Rolling my eyes at him, I continued on my way taking the shortcuts through old headstones and mausoleums, eventually crossing the small pond overlooking the marble statue covered in vines.

"They're going to close the cemetery entrances in an hour, Laurie."

"Will you just be patient? We're almost there." I mumbled, swinging open the metal gate separating the newer tombstones from the older ones.

"The night I arrived back...I landed in the same place we disappeared."

"Yeah, me too...what's the big deal?" Damon groaned.

"You paid your parents a visit?"

Taking my spot in front of the gates to my family's mausoleum, Damon leaned on one of the side windows before coming up beside me. Covered in water stains and rotted vines up and around most of the entrances, I could barely see the crest behind the leaves.

"...after you and Enzo left, I was alone for the rest of the day until Katherine came."

"I've been meaning to ask..." He sighed.

"I was angry and desperate...somehow in the midst of all of that, I brought her back. You can say that I needed her to get out...and I did. She helped me understand what I needed to do, and though it wasn't pretty she's never been the one to sugarcoat."

"...what does this have to do with what Kai said?"

"Do you remember when I turned my humanity off..."

"Yeah, you killed someone in the custodian closet and he vanished...why?" He mumbled.

"...when I turned it back on, I didn't feel anything. Not guilt or worry...just nothing. I thought I was numb to the feeling, but then switching it off wasn't something I was desperate to do. I only did it for Elena..."

Squeezing my body tightly as the cold breeze ran between the tiniest opening of my jacket, I unlocked the brass lock, following my eyes up and over the chain links on the doors.

"You've turned it off before, maybe you were just used to it," Damon mumbled.

"...he was a grown man, a coach...who probably had a family and kids somewhere."

"What I'm saying is...I didn't feel a separation like you normally would. I felt normal." I added.

"So, thinking about your humanity brought you here?"

"...only because this is another place with enough power to place me back in the headspace I felt during the eclipse."

"To do what?"

"...to break the switch," I whispered, standing at the end of the marble table sitting in the middle of the mausoleum.

"Switch? Like your humanity...how the hell do you break that?"

"During the eclipse...there was a moment where I split into two, literally. A voice called out my name...and I looked at him...and so did she."

"...you told me it was just you and Katherine."

"I know it may sound confusing...but I've lived two lives. Lauren, but never Scarlett, not fully."

"What the hell are you talking about? You have two personalities." Damon mumbled.