Chaos In My Mind

How are you?

I'm fine.

Am I really fine?
Of course I am.

Don't you see my happiness?
Can't you hear my laughter?
Don't you feel my happy smile
That my jokes come after?

I'm fine.

I don't want you to know the truth.
So what else would I say
When honesty in life so often
Just gets in my way.

I'm fine.

I don't want to explain myself
Don't want to show my weakness
Want you to think I'm happy now
Ain't gonna show my sadness

I'm fine.

Stop asking me how I am.
I don't wanna tell my story.
Want you to think that I am strong
So you don't have to worry.

How are you?

Why does that question even exist
Who wouldn't say a lie
Nobody will be honest
Not even when they try

I'm fine.

Stop bothering me.
I ain't gonna tell you, so take your worries aside
I ain't gonna tell you a thing
Even while dying inside

I'm fine.

I will text you this while crying
So stop asking. How would you ever know
That what I really feel and am
Is what I really show

I'm fine.

You may think you know me
But let me say, you don't
And even if you think one day
I promise that you won't

I'm fine.