Chaos In My Mind

spilled ink

I smile on the outside
While inside, I cry
Hiding my emotions
So no one sees me die

I wear a mask to hide
Don't want to let it fade
My feelings from inside
They just make me afraid

When will I reveal myself
When will I put away my mask
When will I stand up for myself
It feels too much to ask

Too easy it is to act strong
And hide my true face
I know it's been too long
Now I'm trapped in this dark place

I may seem tough
But I'm weaker than you think
My confidence is not enough
I feel like dark, spilled ink

Regret fills my heart
I can't handle my own emotions
Now I'm falling apart
While drowning in dark oceans

My feelings like a house of cards
Easily shattered and frail
Why is my life like a nightmare
Instead of the promised fairy tale?

My heart is heavy with the weight
Of the emotions I keep inside
But I can't bring myself to show
The pain I try to hide

I am tired of pretending
And hide my true emotions away
But the thought alone is just enough
To make me wanna stay

And now I'm left with nothing
But a castle of shattered glass
My emotions run like rivers
Through cracks of my fragile mask

And when I'm gone, they'll finally see
The person I truly was
But it's too late, I'll be a memory
Fading away into dust