Chaos In My Mind

Forgive me

Maybe I am the prettiest girl in your eyes
But I just can't get myself to cross that line
cause after I do it,
it could never end fine

I just can't bear to break your spirit,
can't risk shattering your heart
The only thing I should've done
Was be honest from the start.

Forgive me for not being straight up,
I never lied, though words fell away
Swear I just didn't know how to tell you
I just didn't know the way

You told me, I haven't hurt you yet,
and thanked me for my honesty
But deep down, I know it breaks you
knowing we'll never be "we"

I want to surrender my heart to you,
and I wish I didn't fear it so much
for my heart screams everytime you're with me,
and my skin aches everytime we touch

But time has taught me to listen to fear
And that there is no ever-after
And my thoughts keep whispering,
I don't deserve you, not even your laughter

You deserve someone better than me
for your heart is made of gold
But I'm too selfish to risk the pain
our love story, never to be told

I hope one day you'll find someone
who deserves you, because I do not
Someone who loves you, truly and deeply,
with a heart burning hot