Chaos In My Mind

Selfish

I let the warmth of touch slip past my guard,
Knowing well that this would never work.
You told me to be selfish, so I was,
Feeding on your kindness, as if it was a drug.

Our bodies carry marks of what we won't confess,
Bruises of a night that never happened.
I kissed you, though the world will never know,
And now I fear I've hurt you more than you will show.

How can something so sweet feel like sin,
When every brush of skin feels like fire?
I prayed the heavens wouldn't judge,
For I've taken what you offered,
and I've taken too much.

I pulled you close, you knew what it was,
No lies, no illusion, but still selfish because-
Forgive me for the pleasure I've claimed,
For being selfish, for feeling no shame.

You can call me selfish, as I do too,
But you asked for the pain- so I gave it to you.
We won't look back with regret or shame,
Every time, we'd choose the same.

If fate rewound and set us free,
We'd choose the same path, willingly.
No guilt can shadow what happened then,
For every touch, I'd choose it again

Even as time goes and we move along,
The moments we shared were never wrong.
A simple truth, in the end I see
What we shared will always stay with me.