his muse ; reader imagines

Look at this forsaken mess you've made ~

Pairing: Xavier Thorpe x reader

Warnings: fluffiness

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It wasn't supposed to happened like that. You were supposed to be away this weekend. Jesus, your parents even made the trip to get you, he was there, he helped you and even cried a little when you waved him goodbye from the back window of your dad's car.

Today, of all of the days...

Why were you here?

Xavier couldn't think as he grabbed your face and force you to look at him, he didn't know if he was screaming, maybe he was, his chest felt tight, like a force was forcing his breaths out of his body and you didn't killed him, he didn't felt bad or at the edge from death for touching you, something was wrong. His hands were red and he painted your face with that color, that color wasn't supposed to be on your face, on your body. You don't look good in red.

"Look at me." He force himself to speak. But there you were, staring at him blinking slowly. "Don't you dare looking away, you hear me?"

Someone tried to pull him away from you but he didn't let them, he would not let you go.

"Listen to me," He cradled your body in his arms. "You listen to me, you hear me? Don't you dare to close your eyes (Y/N)."

Your name in his mouth sounded so dirty, like it didn't belong there. Arms surrounded his shoulders and managed to get him away from you, he began screaming and trashing, trying to get himself free and return to your side. He could see you being pulled on a gurney.

"Don't touch her!" He screamed. "Stop!"

"Pull yourself together man." Ajax hold him tight. "They're taking her to the hospital, you'll see her there."

Xavier breathed heavily as he watched the -now clear- ambulance drive away. He nodded wordlessly and Ajax helped him get up.

"C'mon, if we go now the faster you'll see them again."

-

Xavier pushed the hospital's door opened, crashing against the reception's counter. "(Y/N) (L/N) was brought here minutes ago, is she alright? Can I go see her?" He spoke quickly.

The receptionist stared boringly at him before slowly typing your name on her computer. She popped her gum ball before speaking. "What's your relationship with her?"

Xavier bit her cheek, breathing heavily. "I'm her boyfriend."

She hummed, watching how a group of teenagers stand next to him, she frowned before realizing where they came from. "Sorry sweetheart but only immediate family can ask about her."

He huffed, he was getting angrier. "Look, I need to see her."

"Yeah, but can't do anything to help you, maybe you should all sit there like good kids and wait for your parents, okay?"

Xavier was about to strangle the lady when Wednesday carefully put a hand on his arm, moving him to de side as she stared at the receptionist. "We want to know how she is doing."

The receptionist stared at Wednesday, "As I said to your friend, only immediate family can ask about her, kid."

"Wait for me in the cafeteria." Wednesday's eyes didn't left the receptionist as she told the others. Her eyes slowly drifted downwards to her name tag. "Carol and I will come to an agreement, isn't that right Carol?"

-

Xavier couldn't stop moving, he needed to do it, his stress was making him nervous and no matter how hard Enid or Ajax tried to calm him down but it wasn't helpful. Footsteps made him turn to the cafeteria's door and he saw Wednesday entering calmly, he quickly walked to her.

"How's she?!" He exclaimed.

Wednesday stared at him before giving him a paper. "Room 204, take the elevator and turn right." Xavier stared at her, taking the paper before nodding and running to the elevator.

The number 204 stared at him, but he froze, endless questions began appearing on his head, but he entered anyway. You were lying on the bed completely frozen, several tubes were surrounded you and he almost cried at the image. He made his way to you and almost grabbed your hand but saw that you weren't wearing gloves.

He quickly took off a pair of them (the same pair he bought after your day at the fair) and put them on, grabbing your hand, he kissed his own hand, imagining kissing yours. "You need to wake up (Y/N), you hear me?" He whispered. "I can't...I can't do this without you."

-

Xavier didn't know how long he was sleep, it was uncomfortable, yes. But when the tiny movement of sheets woke him up. He blinked for a moment before your hand carefully grabbing his. "Thank God." He grasped it tightly. Closing his eyes as tears began forming. "Thank God you're okay."

"What...?" You rasped, trying to sit but hissing when the pain caught your body.

"Hey, hey, hey." He gently pushed you back to the bed. "It's okay, I'll explain everything, I swear."

A knock startled him and he quickly glanced at the door, he was preparing to fight whoever force him to leave. It opened and Wednesday made her way inside, she couldn't look at you.

"Hey." You gently greeted her and Xavier gave her a nod.

"Hey." She responded, "Thank you for coming to help." She whispered.

You smiled, "We're friends, aren't we?" You squeezed Xavier's hand. "I'm happy I could help."

Wednesday nodded, "The others are downstairs, they want to come up but if you want a few more minutes of your own, I don't mind holding them out."

"Please." Xavier said, "An hour if you can." Wednesday nodded before leaving, not before looking at you once again. "She asked you to come back?"

You nodded, "Enid send me a text that Wednesday needed help."

Xavier closed his eyes, finally feeling al the stress going out. "Are you mad?!" He pushed away from you, began pacing. "Do you have any idea what you did?!"

"I help?" You were confused.

"You almost die! You were bleeding, you understand? I held you on my arms and you almost died!"

"Xavier..."

"No! No." He tugged at his hair. "You can't do this, you hear me?"

"Xavier..." You tried again.

"I can't...I can't..." He turned, not daring to look at you. "I can't (Y/N), I can't."

"Xavier." You exclaimed, managing to catch his attention, he was tearing up. You raised your hand and he quickly grabbed it. "I'm sorry."

"I can't go through that again (Y/N), I can't lose you."