The photographer

Chapter 49

Mariam's pov
We landed in France Kristen calmed my nerve he pulled me from my hand to stand between his legs as he kisses my palms I don't know why I am nervous as he sat me next to him Niall and Kristen are take caring of them he rubbed his thumbs over my knuckles I shut my eyes then I stood up after I walked towards the balcony he is calming me but it isn't working I don't know why I just can't believe that I am in France and our kids in England I walked back in I can't trust Kristen to take care of Adam and David, Florence and Jana, Taylor suddenly I got pulled from my waist I wanna laugh and smile even cry “Harry I can't believe that we are here and Adam & David, Florence and Jana & Taylor are in England as Kristen wouldn't take care of them I..." he cut me off “shut up they are eight years old and they could drive her crazy" he said I laughed then I stood up “that is why you were nervous ?" he wondered I hummed we got seated against the headboard I looked at him as I laughed “I was so sad and hurt even mad and frustrated but when you are trying to calm me it felt so much different I..." he cut me off “shhh daddy wants his girl the mother of his kids not..." I cut him off by kissing as I pulled him from his necklace then I pulled away as I got out of the bed as I closed the sliding door of the balcony and the curtain he already stood up as he is biting his lip as I walk backwards as we kiss as our tongues started playing I automatically wrapped my arms around his neck he moved his hands to my butt he hummed as we pulled “I can't believe that we are alone nobody can drag us down" he said smiling I hummed nodding smiling he lifted me up as he turned as he walks towards the bed as he turned for the second time as I am now sitting on his lap as he looks at my face lovingly as we kiss as our tongues started playing I kissed him one last time as I lay he hover over me as he started kissing my neck I ran my fingers through his curls as he already gives me open mouthed kisses as I feel his tongue he looked into my eyes as it looks like he wants something as he got off as he looks out as he already hold the curtain as I got on the pillow our feelings for each other are different now I felt the bed getting dipping I got seated against the headboard as we stare at each other as I got out “I told you we ain't working like before" I said as I got seated against the headboard for the millionth time “I will make us work just give me time" he said smiling I shook my head then I got out of the bed for the millionth time “if we kept sneak..." he cut me off we are working already but you're not seeing it yet as you miss me" he said smiling happily as he is already holding my hands and how did you know that I am missing you ? as I..." he cut me off “shhh I'm all yours now don't put her in your head" he said then he pulled me from my hands towards the bed as he keeps kissing my hands as well I see his beautiful green eyes and his handsome face I smiled “Harry I am so scared that someone could seen us or anyone in..." he cut me off “I don't think so" he said what he is doing is so romantic and gentleman he is but I am so scared of the world if someone or anyone in general saw us or sneak peek at us as it happens I moved closer “Harry" he hummed as those beautiful green eyes looking at me with love and care, happiness and joy “I love you please confirm it to the..." he cut me off “I am not confirming anything except the thing..." I cut him off “okay okay relax" I said he layed as I got on the top of him as he moves his hands up and down my back I rolled off him as I layed on the pillow next to him I want him prove that you're all mine or I swear that I will do something stupid" I said he hover over me as he gives me small kisses I took my shirt and pants off as I stayed in undergarments as he continues as he spread my legs as he kisses as he pulled my panites off as he kisses my clit on repeat as he makes out with it as I pulled his hair let us continue in the shower" he said as he winked I ran towards the bathroom as I got in the bathtub after I became fully naked he got in after a second as we kiss as our tongues started playing as he pulled for air as we kiss does that proved to you that I am all yours ?" he asked as he already pressed his forehead against mine I nodded “can you stay with us when you and I go back to England ?" I asked he answered that he will see about that as he is already ending things with her I understand “I am not leaving you and the kids behind ever" he said then he putted my hair behind my ear I cleaned myself as I got dressed in a skirt and crop top I can't stand it anymore that I feel that woman who has my kids and I am, I felt his arms getting wrapped around my waist “I love you and I have missed you it..." I cut him off “do you know that Adam and David, Florence and Jana, Taylor's birthday was yesterday ?" I asked as I don't feel his presence behind me as I saw him laying as his hand on his forehead I walked towards my suitcase as I got my hair brush of course he forgotten his own kids birthday “I'm sorry babe you know traveling and..." I cut him off “whatever I understand that you are traveling and that shit of a new girlfriend that ya have that doesn't have an ending you already looking like a cheater to them" I said he came as he leaned against the wall nearby the mirror babe I told you I..." I cut him off “stop just stop I don't know why I even meet you why I even given myself to you I tried to make the kids believe that woman is me but they didn't believe that woman is me even though I would never compare myself to another woman who you are dating I could've have Adam and David, Florence and Jana, Taylor from another man I knew that man would never love neither care about us they will feel that they aren't his own kids I would a responsible father and mother at the same time I..." I stopped as I looked away from him I can't handle myself together I can't believe that I am still in love with him even after seeing him with another woman also she has kids I grabbed my phone then I walked towards the balcony as I found myself dialing mum's number as I pressed my phone on my ear hey sweetie I have missed you it is good that ya called are you okay ? how..." I cut her off “I have missed you more I am not okay but the kids are" I answered she sighed I can't hold my feelings and emotions together I can't “what happened sweetie ?" she asked I can't believe neither hold my feelings and emotions together I felt my head is spinning and dizzy, nauseous and I want to thrown up I want to suicide as I tried before I did as I hear mum calling my name on repeat I can't hold myself