Me to You

Chapter 24

January 4, 2019

Don't break my heart- The Weeknd

We went back to school on Tuesday. Nothing really happened throughout the week. We had mid-term exams coming up so we spent the week doing homework and studying. After school, Bia, Kaia, and I went to Starbucks to study. We did study but we got ourselves distracted most of the time and just started talking to each other before going back to studying.

"Martin said he's committing to MSU for football this fall." Bia says as I jokingly said that my MSU gear that I had gotten him for Christmas came in handy.

"Jason is committed to Miami University in Ohio. Where's Theo going?" Kaia asked as I just shrugged.

"I haven't asked and he hasn't seemed to have made a decision."

They just nodded as they told me that I should ask you. I only nodded and said that I would later. The time spent studying, more like gossiping, flew by and we had to make our way to Bubba's. Once we got there, we got our usual booth before you, Martin, and Jason came. The night went on as it usually would with laughs and jokes.

"So, what college are you committing to Theo?" I asked.

"UND. University of North Dakota."

"Dang you're moving the furthest." Kaia joked as you just nodded.

Something felt off. I didn't know what it was. Maybe it was because we only had like six months left before you would have to move to North Dakota for school and football. Maybe it was because we weren't officially together and you were moving 1,000 miles away. You were gonna meet new people and you would decide that whatever we were wasn't worth it and you'd find someone else. It was like you sensed me swimming in my thoughts as you gave my hand a reassuring squeeze. Eventually, the night ended and we all made our way home.

I drove with music playing as my head continued to swim in the anxiety of what would happen to us when you leave. What if you forget about me when you're 1,000 miles away? What if the group gets distant? Maybe I shouldn't have thrown that damn football. If I hadn't I wouldn't be sitting here in worry. Once I made it home, I texted you that I made it home safely before hopping in the shower with my thoughts. When I got out and got ready for bed, you called.

"You okay, sweets?" you asked with concern as I laid in bed.

"Yeah. No. Not really... I love that you're going to UND because you love it there, but that's so far."

"They have a great nursing program here for you. They have a great business program here too and the football team is great, that's why I chose it. You wanted to go to school for nursing. You could apply here and we'd figure everything out from there. It's a great school," you explained as I just nod with a smile at the thought that you had thought of me while choosing a school.

"Brock Boeser or whatever that you called prince charming a few weeks ago went here too. Maybe that'll help you decide."

I laugh at your 'yeah whatever' tone as you informed me. I told you I'd think about it before switching topics and spent our night talking on the phone.