Breathing in, breathing out

Please Don't Hide Your Pain

Please don't hide your pain

While it'd seem like the easiest

Way to protect someone from

Your dark spots, it's not fair. 

Some days take a toll on you

When grief holds you down

As you breathe through a straw

Trying to get by as life goes on

Without your favorite person.

Please don't hide your pain –

It's not doing good for the long run

Pretending to be fine in the sea of

Joyous faces, it must feel lonely.

Some nights cause even more

Heartache by letting the stress

Of things you can't fully control

Build a wall over all that is light

And warm, taking death's bargain.

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A/N: Alright, so... writing about grief(whatever form that is) can be healing but also bring up a lot of hurt that you chuffed away to not deal with it, and each time I'm writing a poem about my brother(there are so many by now) it makes me see and feel that pain all over again. That longing. That mystery. That pure anger over the way things went. I know that death is not the end of it, but sometimes it feels hollow; not only my grief but trying to live by that truth and not drown in the extent of it. I know that it all comes down to accepting and moving along, not moving on, but living with it as best as you can, which I'm trying to do. You can never fully forget or even feel them around you, but you can try to live without them. That's the hard part, at least for me. If you relate to that and feel seen by this poem, I'm here to show and give you my kindness, and understanding and maybe offer my shoulder to cry on. One thing I want to emphasize here is that going through your grief can express love; love that you couldn't but still want to give them. If nothing else helps, try to approach that. (:

With all of my love,

M.