Darkness is rolling in again
I have everything to lose
yet I seem not to care
enough to fight for it.
Every damn morning I try
to find a reason to go on
when this great pain I feel
is taking away my will
to pursue my dreams.
Darkness is rolling in again
the things I found relief in
are not doing it for me
as I feel like giving up.
On most nights I cry over
how miserable I am on
the face of their joyful
faces that haunt me
in my nightmares.
Darkness is rolling in again
I have people to watch for
yet I seem not to see
their own demons.
I never knew my worth
until I fell to my knees
feeling the spirit of God
overflow all the doubts
with His view of me.
Darkness is rolling in again
the places I found beauty in
are not doing it for me
as I feel like dying.
My faith in Him was weak
'cause I didn't practice it
for the better of the days
that give me a lot to feel
to make me more torn.
. . .
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A/N: So... for the past two weeks I've dealt with very bad anxiety that doesn't let me live my life the way I'd want to and while there are moments where I feel relief, I usually don't hold on to it(nor to joy) enough to overcome it. Anxiety is a real bitch when you also have depression on top of it, which is why this poem speaks volumes. I truly hope you're all taking care of yourself and your mental health - I know, it's hard and can be super tricky, but having God with you or whatever else you believe in, could help too. At least, He helps me.
Stay safe, my friends!
With love,
M.
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