Chapter 13

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          Staring at my reflection in the mirror. My pathetic self. Looking like garbage. If I say I don't hate myself then I am lying. I hate myself for being born, I hate myself for being poor, I hate myself for not having any power and having to tolerate all the bullshit thrown at me. I hate my life and most of all, I hate that I can not do anything about it.

        You piece of shit, You are a nobody, gold digger, you are fired, you are just too much to handle, This is where you belong, down there, watching us up here

         All those words came running in my head, they played before me like a movie. And they hurt, I won't lie, they hurt really bad that I just want to kill myself and put an end to all this. But I can't, I can't break down, I can't give up, I can't die. I have to keep going, I have to keep struggling and taking it all, taking whatever is thrown at me and putting on a smile, until the end, the very end. "Ha" A little gasp escaped my lips. As I blinked back the tiers that fought their way out. I can't cry and I know it, I have to hang in there for as long as it takes "Damn, My hair is all mess" Staring at my messy hair from my reflection.

    I turned on the tap and bent over to wash my hair. Scrubbing my hair with my fingers, it took me a while to get it cleaned. And when I raised, my Uniform got more wet. I took off my shirt, leaving only my inner shirt. Due to my dripping hair, the inner T-shirt began to get wet. I thought of drying my hair with my handkerchief but, it got dirty when I wiped the table at the cafeteria and my shirt got stained from the leftovers, Not to forget, I didn't wear my blazer as it happens to be a hot day today. What a wonderful day I am having today I stared at my reflection once again. As my shirt got wet, it became transparent. Good thing I was wearing a black bra.

    Suddenly, a hand appeared in front of me holding a purple handkerchief. My eyes followed the hand all the way up and boom, I locked eyes with those beautiful electric blue eyes. Bianca "Bianca?" What does she want? Why is she here?

    "Hey Maria?" she flashed a smile, a smile that didn't reach her eyes

    "Hi?"

    "Here, use this" she offered, dropping me in a more confused state. What is she up to? why is she offering me her handkerchief?

    "Oh thanks" with I smiled, and I gently moved her hand away from me "I will manage"

    "You hate me don't you?" still offering the handkerchief when she asked

    "Pardon?" what is she saying...

    "It's understandable. But, you may get a cold if you don't dry your hair.....That will be bad don't you think?... I don't think you are the type that would like to miss classes" Still smiling. Is this girl crazy or something? What is she trying to active right now? Did Logan send her here?

    "I appreciate your concern. I will be fine" I assured her and reached for my Uniform. About to leave, she got in the way, stopping me at my track.

    "Maria"

    "What do you want? Bianca" Maintaining my cool

    "I know you hate me and I don't blame you.... I will also hate anyone related to the person who bullies me, that is if my brother would let that happen..... My brother is a total dick... I will admit" My gaze focused on her as she spoke. I don't want to have anything to do with her. "Here..."

    "I don't hate you"

    "What?" Taken aback

    "Just because Your brother is a total....." I hesitate

    "Dick" she completed, and I raised an eyebrow at her "he is a total dick sometimes or will say most of the time" with a smile

    "Oooky" nodding, I smiled as well and collected the handkerchief "Just because your brother is a total dick doesn't mean I hate you. You haven't offended me in any way.... and" my eyes fell on the handkerchief I was holding, from the textures, anyone would tell that it is an expensive handkerchief. Very smooth against one's skin. I lifted my head to size up the lady in from of me and the thought came to my mind. Maybe she is more reasonable than her brother "You gave me such an expensive handkerchief to wipe my dirt. I can't possibly hate you after this" she flashed a bright smile

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