Don't Let Me Go (Book 1)

Chapter 45

LOGAN's POV

Was I willing to drive us? She wanted to hang out with me, is that what she is saying? Maria wanted to hang out with me and help me get things off my mind and my brain felt like it would explode, my heart reacted strangely. What the fuck is wrong with me? I can't be liking, Maria can I? Since the club. Since the kiss at the club, Maria has been all that I think about. I wouldn't end a day without Maria coming to mind. The worst part was her smile. Her beautiful smile. Smile that not once she has shown me but she gives it to Alex and Gorge Why? Because they are friends? That is bullshit. She even gives her time. What is so special about her friendship? but still, I find myself wanting it. I think? Now she was creating time to help me let go of things. It is unexpecting and tempting

Maria gave directions while I drove. Silence lived between us throughout our journey and she only spoke when pointing out directions. She made us stop at a convenience store and bought instant noodles saying we would need it. She prepared it and the next thing I know. I was diving on the beach. Unexpecting like I said.

Under the night sky and cold air. She made me sit on the sand by the beach with my bare feet. And as the cold water hit my skin. I felt relaxed and distracted by the calming surroundings. Like magic.

'' I come here whenever things get out of my control'' Eye focused on the ocean. For the first time. I could read Maria freely like a book. Bianca told me that she was like us, broken, sad, drowning in the dark, trying to hide secrets. But Bianca was wrong. Maria was not entirely like us. She is a broken fighter. As I stared at her I saw how much she has hidden, I saw how much broken she was, I saw how much she fights. Broken but still fight and I am one of the jerks who contributed to her cracks.

I looked away from her, not in the mood to hate myself more than I already did. " Here'' she handed me my bowl of instant noodles ''it's warm, it wouldn't be nice if it got cold" I stared at the bowl. Never in my life have I eaten instant noodles and I couldn't tell her that. I reached for the bowl and the warmth of the bowl felt nice. Reaching for the plastic fuck. I tasted it and Damn. What have I been doing all the 19 years of my life

'' It goes well with the atmosphere doesn't it?'' she spoke, not expecting an answer. We fell into long silence, caught up in our food. I will definitely get this for Bianca '' Logan'' breaking the silence

''hmm'' to caught up in the noodles and unable to answer with the food in my mouth.

'' Stop being a dick''

'' .... '' almost choked on my food. I looked at her to see that she care less that she just said that so casually, with full attention on her food. What did she just say to me?

'' Excuse me?''

'' You don't have to be a dick to have people under your control Logan''

'' Just because I let you talk freely doesn't give you the right to speak such bold words'' I frowned. Maria rolled her eyes and looked at me with a blank expression

'' I say this because I want to'' With that she goes back to her noodles. I stared for a while then went back to mine. When we were finished, We watched the ocean quietly. I would admit. This was really helpful. I stole several glances at Maria who seemed lost in the view. I had many questions to ask, many, like how did she find this place? how did she get her scare? what about her family?

Maria suddenly stood up confusing me. '' It's time to leave'' and I nodded ''Just me'' she said. My home is not far from here.. you stay'' I stood up as well

'' Let me drive you home...''

''We are not close Logan'' looking me dead in the eye. '' this doesn't make us friends... I just wanted to help''

''I see'' I already knew from the start and it wasn't something she needed to clarify

'' I have never told anyone about this spot, you are the first'' I didn't know how to respond to that. Maria had a way of leaving me out of control. '' You can use it whenever you need somewhere to get away from everything'' And that was how she left me at the beach, her getaway sport.

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I was at the rooftop with Lucas. He explained to me how he was close to tracking down that bastard whose recent video set me off. It was a video of Alex and Maria at school yesterday. And the caption was 'It seems like the knight has managed to win the heart of another king '

'' Just a little more time I will find him'' Lucas assured

'' that is what you said last week. I want him found by tomorrow or I will get him from other means''

'' I pray it doesn't get to that'' Suddenly the door burst open and Bianca stormed in angrily.

'' Maria is going to Alex's party'' she barked, it took her long enough to find out. I lifted my head to look at her as she stood in front of me with hands on her waist. '' You knew didn't you''

'' and what should I have done'' The reluctance In my tone angered her more

'' Tell me?''

'' Bianca, just because Maria is your friend doesn't mean, I have to care what she does'' I reminded her just in case she has forgotten. Even if deep down I do care and it fucking kills me inside to know that I care.

This is the extra chapter I promised. There isn't much in it but I hope you still like it.
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