Don't Let Me Go (Book 1)

Chapter 79

LOGAN'S POV

'' We are closed and in his contact, you are saved as his other half so I concluded that you two are close that was why I called'' From behind me, I heard the bartender talk to someone. Bianca definitely.

'' thank you'' Bianca's response made me smile while rolling my eyes '' Logan'' she calls as her hand meets my shoulder. She gave it a gentle squeeze '' Let us go''

'' leave me alone'' I shoved her hand off my shoulder. I don't ask for much. I just need space, I want to be alone and be given the chance to drink my heart out. I can't be sober in this situation. I may end up committing suicide. I can't remember the last time I was this hurt. I think the last time I felt this hurt was when my mother died. A part of me had died with her back then. But somehow, Maria managed to bring that part of me back to life and killed it again.

'' Logan for fuck sake'' she stands beside me '' Get yourself together'' forcing myself to look at her. She carried a frown. For someone who really cared for Maria. She was so calm. Maria did not only leave me, she left her too.

'' How the fuck do you expect me to do that, huh..'' I yelled '' How the.....'' If I spoke another word, I would cry for the hundredth time today. '' She....'' I flashed back to that day ' I never promised to keep that promise' those were her words to me. She always had plans to end things with me. '' She said being with me is painful '' Bianca's gaze softened. I looked away from her, my glass and drank to the last drop '' Another'' I called out to the bar attender

'' there will not be another'' Bianca interrupts

'' Bianca, Mind your fucking business''

'' This is my business Logan'' she scolded '' You have been laying around, drunk like an idiot, for two weeks now.... when there is so much to do

'' Like what'' I yelled back. Is she fucking crazy? Don't she get that I don't want to do anything? I can't do anything. I fell empty for fuck sake, dead inside. The only feeling alive inside of me is pain. Nothing but pain. '' You always claimed to love Maria so much. But here you are, completely fine''

'' And who says I am fine'' she revealed the pain in her eyes '' I just lost a friend and I can't even blame her for leaving me because it's all our fault... And I can't be like this, I can't lose control of myself that is what you always taught me'' I fell into silence. Loss control. When it come to Maria, I never had control. Right from day one. I have never had control around Maria. Maybe this is my punishment, My punishment for hurting her. '' Logan.... get your act together, there is a lot that has to be done''

'' Like what'' I grumbled

'' Find out what went wrong... Why would Maria suddenly break up when everything was going well? And even if you two broke up, why would she leave... Think about it'' Bianca spoke while she sat on the stool next to mine I took a minute to think '' I got Lucas to track her as I couldn't reach her. Maria is not in the country'' Certainly, That was news to me '' I don't think Maria's family have that much money to immigrate nor can they...

'' not just raise that amount of money overnight'' I completed her words like I knew what she would say '' Unless she won a bet which Maria doesn't have time for or someone...''

'' I was thinking the same thing'' I didn't have to finish my sentence for Bianca to understand me. '' he is the only person that came to mind and Lucas said he overheard his father talking about Maria coming to see father''

'' Shit'' I got up so quickly that my head ached and I almost lost balance

'' Clam down'' Bianca held my arm in support

'' Did you drive here?''

'' Yes?'' curiosity in her tone

'' take me to father''