Don't Let Me Go (Book 1)

Chapter 78

The next day at breakfast. The once lively table lived in dead silence. All that we heard was the sound of our spoons against the plates. I noticed Malisa's discomfort but she said nothing scared of what the response would be. We were almost done with our food when Mother said. '' Malisa... pack what you need. We are moving'' the both of us pause. I look from Malisa who had so many questions to my mother who continues with her food

'' where... where are we moving to?''

'' that is for Maria to decide'' She agreed We are really doing this. I had thought she would want to talk me out of it '' and Maria'' called my attention

'' Mum?'' she places her spoon on the table to look at me. There were mixed emotions in her eyes. Obviously, she didn't sleep last night.

'' cut all ties with that family before we leave am, that boy Logan and his sister, I want no mention of their name nor do I want to be seen around them... am I understood

'' ..'' Logan and Bianca, Can I really let them go? '' Ye...yes Mother''

'' Is someone going to tell me what is going on''

'' Prepare our documents for us to leave in a week, at most two weeks?'' Mother instructed, ignoring Malisa. What she never does.

'' I will'' with that said she got up and left the table, leaving me and the confused Malisa

'' Maria?'' Malisa called in a whisper '' what is happening''

'' Malisa... what country have you dreamed of spending the rest of your life''

'' ammm... Italy or Australia''

'' Australia?'' shocked

'' Yeah.. isn't that where were are from?

'' Oh... ok, we are going to Australia'' Malisa fell speechless and I smiled.

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Walking into the compound a few days later. I had just returned from the bank concerning the check. I got the money transferred into my mother's account. Then I saw him... Logan. Standing outside talking to Malisa

'' Maria is here'' Malisa announced making Logan turn to look at me. He carried a frown but worries lived behind it.

'' Logan'' the name rolled out weaker than planned, my heart raced like crazy and not in a good way

'' Maria'' walked up to me. He stops in from of me '' What is going on, I haven't been able to reach you... did something happen'' I looked over his shoulder to see Malisa had left

'' Nothing happened''

'' then why can't I reach you and I noticed you guys are packing'' he looks at the house then back to me

'' Yeah.. we are leaving''

'' What? Like moving? if you were, what didn't you tell me? I should have helped''

'' Because I didn't want to'' The plan was not to see him until I left but as expected Logan came to me. What do I tell him? How do I explain things to him? How do I tell him that we need to end this? '' You should go Logan.. You have helped me enough'' I walked past him

'' wait, what?' he caught my arm, holding me back. The warmth of his hand, how desiring '' Maria?'' I closed my eyes at the mention of my name, hoping all this would disappear and when I opened my eyes, it would be that I imagined all this. But it wasn't '' Maria, look at me'' a pleading tone that I couldn't resist. I turn on my heels to face him. Meeting his gaze, fear in his eyes, fear and worries '' Maria, you are acting strange did I do something wrong?'' I have to do this, I have to end this even if I don't want to do

'' Logan'' I pulled my arm away from his grip '' Logan I can't do this''

'' what are you talking about?''

'' All of this, this relationship with you, my father, your father, your family in general... I can't do this so please...''

'' No'' he cuts me off '' Don't play with me''

'' I do not play Logan... let...let... let's put an end to all of it, Logan... I am trying to pretend.. to act like everything is normal but I can't any more... I can't do it... so let's stop'' we fell into silence. Logan stared at me, searching for answers in my eyes. Confused and broken. He obviously wouldn't find any.

'' Maria''

'' Logan stop'' My chest burnt heavily. I could feel the heat in my eyes. I have to hold it. I can't cry in front of him, I can't break in front of him '' Go'' I was about to turn but he held me back, placing hands on both shoulder

'' Maria stop this please...'' his eye held back tears '' Don't play with me like this.. if this is a prank stop it, I don't like''

'' for fuck sake Logan!!'' I honestly didn't intend to raise my voice, I threw his hands away from my shoulder

'' Maria'' he yells back and I flinch, Logan's tears can running down '' Stop ''

'' This is not a joke Logan... This should end here before someone gets hurt... You and I can't get pass this level...'' His lips crushed into mine, unannounced. His arms wrapped around me desperate. Trapping me in his warmth which I have desired for the past few days. I didn't hesitate to kiss him back. To feel him. To hold him. I wanted him so bad. I wanted his body on mine, I wanted him to kiss every inch of me, to drown me with pressure. I wanted him to take me off the ground to a place safe. I wanted to open my eyes and see that all this was a dream and we were ok. I wanted him to whisper sweet things in my ear like he always does. But this was the reality. It was our reality, our faith. '' Stop'' gathering all the power in me to push him away. My family is at sake. I have to protect them and him as well

Logan stood in front of me breathless. Not hiding his emotions like he used to. He was breaking inside out. His gaze travelled my entire body, back up.

'' You... you promise to be with me, stay my side''

'' I never promised to keep that promise'' I said '' I am tired Logan... I can't do this any more... I can't''

'' Maria... I Love You'' Almost swayed by those words

'' You will Love someone else... someone better'' We fell into silence. The tears that ran down Logan's cheek made me want to run to him. Tell him that it ok, it's all a prank. I would never leave you '' Being with you is painful and I am tired... so please, go'' breaking the silence

'' is... is that what you want?'' What I want is to hold you and never let go. What I want is far beyond my reach

'' Yes, Logan... I want you to leave'' with a few seconds of hesitation. I watch Logan reach for his face with both hands, wiping his face. He faked a smile and walked out of the compound, slamming the gate so hard that it was what angered him. The gate fell back open. Immediately I ran into the house, shutting the door behind me. I walked past Mother and Malisa to my room and locked the door behind me. I can't survive this. I can't.