Don't Let Me Go (Book 1)

Chapter 50

'' Ahr'' I let out in shock and pain while I fought to maintain balance. I looked back at the boiling Bianca. How long has she had that much strength locked in her? Is this how much she has gotten to love Maria? Why? ''Bi..Bianca?''

'' Why the fuck will you kiss her'' She yelled

'' Bianca I was drunk'' trying to give a reasonable explanation

''Oh no, Don't give me that Bullshit Logan.. you and I know too well that you never get that drunk enough not to know what you are doing...'' I saw the hurt in her eyes.

'' I... '' Speechless. I hurt my sister this much just by kissing her best friend. Never will I believe Bianca can raise hand at me over someone like Maria. '' why are you reacting this way?''

'' Maria is my friend Logan... and she has gone through so much because of you... Do you know how much I apologize on your behalf just so Maria wouldn't hate us.. hate me'' Her voice cracked and I thought she would cry any moment from now

'' You are scared of losing Maria that much that you hit me, Bianca?'' Still stunned You...''

'' Not only did you break rule number eleven Logan you also forced yourself on her.. what is your problem?'' she looked away from me '' And here I was thinking she didn't come to school because of the fever she had yesterday, not knowing you made her sick Logan''

''She isn't in school?'' it came as news to me since I haven't attended class today. Maria comes to school no matter what. Even when her uniform got ripped before the entire department, Maria came to school the very next day, not caring what people would say. It wasn't enough to break her.

'' You wouldn't know when you only care about what your self''

'' Don't say that Bianca'' I got offended

'' If you do care about me, you will stop hurting Maria... Maria is the one friend I have come to like and trust but you keep hurting her out of your selfishness" she finally cried out

'' Bianca stop it'' getting hurt well '' it is not what you think''

'' Then what is it ?'' She asked a very important question. I brushed my hair back and forth in frustration. A question I had no answer to

'' Logan, this is not you wanting to be in control. This is just being a jerk and you are hurting me as well''

'' Stop it, Bianca''

'' No, you should stop, leave Maria alone''

'' I want to let her Go Bianca'' Now I was the one raising my voice and Bianca was the surprise one '' I want to leave her alone but..." I yelled out and the place went silent. Bianca stared at me confused while I tried to calm down.

'' What?''

'' I don't know what is happening to me Bianca'' If only she could possess my body and mind and be around Maria for only a day then she would understand, because I have no idea how I would explain it to her '' I don't understand myself lately, I don't know what is wrong with me I just... I can't... I am losing more control than usual lately'' calming my tone '' I am beginning to think it is a condition or something. I want to leave her alone at the same time I don't''

'' I don't understand?'' She took a step forward, watching me with full attention

'' I don't understand either... I didn't intend to hurt her Bianca... Last night, believe me when I say I lost control of myself and...''

'' You never lose control Logan'' she reminded

'' That is why I said I don't understand myself again '' I agreed and disagreed. I never lost control until Maria came in. We fell into a long silence. Bianca studied me like I was a mathematical problem. If only I was, at least there is always a formula to solve mathematical problems