Don't Let Me Go (Book 1)

Chapter 43

Logan and Bianca didn't show up in school the next day. My entire day was spent with Alex and Gorge who argued countlessly, while I found it strange that Gorge was fully awake and kept following me around, clamming to help Bianca keep an eye on me, protecting me from Alex. Which made me wonder, when did he become close with Bianca?

I arrived at work and headed straight for Bianca's room to clean it with true intentions of seeing her.

'' Are you planning to stay in door forever?'' I asked, the moment I spotted her in bed on her phone

'' Leave me alone Maria '' She doesn't look at me. Just continued what she was doing on her phone. I studied her for a while, she was totally drained. Not a drop of joy on that beautiful face of hers

'' That wasn't the agreement when I said we could be friends'' She lifted her head, giving me a quick stare before dropping her gaze to a screen once again ''You are sad, sad about what happened''

'' I am not sad I am angry'' she grumbles to her screen. I took my time, analysing the state of my friend then walked up to sit next to her on the bed

'' That is why we are friends... I don't have much with friends but I know that they support each other. And that is what I am here for'' She looks away from her phone to me '' Talk to me... I may not be of much help but I do know how to listen.'' We fell into a deep long silence and she watched her hesitate to speak, she didn't want to tell me anything ''why are you angry?... Are you angry with Logan?''

'' Everything '' She finally spoke, in a low tone. '' I am angry with everyone and everything. I am angry with Logan for being an idiot all the time, knowing very well he would get hurt, I am angry with myself for being so useless and weak'' the word weak sounded odd coming from her. Those she even know what that word means '' I can't even protect my brother and I am angry with the entire school, with Logan's so call friends that have no fucking idea how their actions affect us and this house. We live in pretend. Pretending to be the perfect family. Powerful and fearless'' She dropped her head, hiding the pain in her eyes '' You would not understand''

'' I do... I do understand Bianca... I understand what it is like to be so upset and not knowing the solution'' she looks at me again '' The feeling of being, miss treated by the world''

'' Can I ask a personal question?'' I smelt uncertainty in her voice

'' Yeah,'' I didn't think too much about it. for odd reasons, I felt like I knew what the question was

'' What happened to you? how did you get that scar?'' No matter how long it has been, and how much I prepared myself to answer that question, I would never be ready for it and I guess it showed on my face. '' I am sorry. I didn't me to upset you''

''My father... was g5 an abuseve asshole'' I said, I finally said it. Something I have never told anyone, other than my family members who witnessed it. It felt like I let out a huge weight off my back. '' He gets drunk and abuses my mum, sister and I... I got this scar'' I turned my head slightly to my shoulder. Even in my clothes I still felt exposed. '' trying to protect my mum and in the end, we both got hurt''

''I don't know what to say Maria'' She looks down at her phone on her thigh

'' You don't have to say anything... he is a dead man now so it's all in the past''

'' Dead'' she whispered '' I wish my father would be a dead man as well'' Relatable, I could relate with her. I also wished the same when mine was alive. '' My father is also abusive'' not looking at me and I didn't know how to respond. It wouldn't be right to tell her that I already know, how would she see me

'' He...'' what should I say?

'' It started when my mother died... At first, his main target was Logan, but then I joined his list. Whenever he comes at me, Logan gets in the way, protecting me.... it is only us, it has always been only us'' she frowns '' He is his son and heir to the family business so it is his job to mud Logan. Turn him into someone powerful and worthy. Someone who is feared and respected. Someone who controls everything in his territory. At first, Logan was rebellious but slowly, he didn't know when he slowly began to turn into what Father wanted him to be'' I felt strange aching in my chest. Monsters are made not bone, Not all monsters are bad Those were Bianca's words.