Don't Let Me Go (Book 1)

Chapter 65

The next day, I sat alone in class. Thinking about what Logan said, I would have to give him an answer tonight. What the hell does he want me to say? And what makes him believe that I would give a different answer by tonight? Whatever he is planning it seems to be working as I can't get my mind off the thought throughout yesterday and right now.

On the other hand, Gorge hasn't been in school for days and he wasn't responding to any of my texts or calls. I needed someone to talk to other than people from that family and that includes Alex. I studied the almost empty class, almost everyone was in the library. Due to the exams, we had no lectures so students could study. Bianca and Logan were at the basketball court. Bianca once mentioned to me their usual home lessons during exams, probably why they never bothered to study in school. I reached for my bag pack and took out Logan's juice box. I don't have to give this to him today, do I?

'' Hey Maria'' Alex suddenly walked in from the front door and all eyes went to him. He smiled as he made his way to sit in the chair in front of mine and he turned to face me.

'' Good morning'' I could not resist smiling at him. '' What are you doing here?''

'' Looking for you'' he shrugged

'' You know, The twins don't like you coming to our department right''

'' Part of the reasons why I do?''

'' you are a troublemaker in disguise'' I teased and he laughed it out ''By the way, what is the history behind you guys' battle'' his smile faded

'' Nothing'' he says almost immediately, obviously hiding something

'' Oh... it ok if you don't want to tell me'' I smiled '' I am not really the type to be concerned about things like this. I don't even know why I asked?'' Wondering to myself

'' I saw you two that night'' he spoke in a low tone.

'' what night''

'' At my house, the party'' I didn't know how to react or what to say to him '' Logan is not a bad person Maria'' Exactly what Bianca told me. I thought the two hated each other, why is he suddenly telling me this. '' he just has his difficulties that he keeps to himself, I don't know if you understand'' I understood more than he thought I did.

'' Do you know what it is?'' I asked to be sure that he knew what I thought he knew

'' No really, they don't talk to anyone, not to me, not to Lucas''

'' I am guessing you all used to be close''

'' yeah we were'' he smiled '' that was before his mother's death, my aunt'' a sad smile '' Logan changed, I couldn't take it so I gave him space''

'' You regret it''

'' Yeah, I do. I should have stayed with him and tried to understand but... what has happened has happened'' forcing the smile and there was silence between us. He cares for Logan and doesn't know how to show it. I guess it's because he feared that Logan wouldn't accept him, he feared that Logan hated him for leaving '' Oh damn it'' Alex suddenly broke the silence '' I hate this atmosphere '' he spoke out loud '' You what to do something?''

'' I want to study'' he frowned

'' You are too serious '' rolling his eyes '' That must be for Logan'' referring to the juice box on the table

'' Oh yeah. How did you know?''

'' I see it with him often''

'' oh'' nodding

'' And I hate it''

'' Why?''

'' Because I am jealous and I hate that you choose him over me''