Don't Let Me Go (Book 1)

He Fell first (Chapter 35)

HE FELL FIRST

Bianca snapped me out of my thought '' are you fucking listening to me? ''

'' I am '' I walked away from her to the couch

'' what is wrong with you... do you know how much crisis she would probably be going through right now because of you Logan ''

'' What happened was an accident Bianca '' I spoke calmly. I rest my head to think

'' that wouldn't have happened if you stayed away from her like I told you to but no.. you just had to... ''

'' Bianca '' I warned and she went silent immediately. I turn my head to look at her '' I don't understand why you like that girl so much to the point that you scold me because of her. She is just a nobody '' Bianca stared at me for a while

'' She is like us '' Her words got me deep. I leaned forward in my chair '' She is like us, Logan ''

'' She is nothing like us Bianca.. she is a no... ''

'' Yes she is a nobody.. but there is no difference between her and us... you saw it earlier Logan '' Her voice dropped '' that scar wasn't an accident and you know it better than anyone ''

'' So what if she was also abused '' I asked

'' Don't you see it Logan '' she walked to stand in front of me '' She is the one person that you can't break and that is because she is already broken '' Bianca spoke in a low tone, almost like she would cry '' she is like use Logan.. this only difference between us is that we cover our fucked up life with luxuries but she doesn't try to hide hers. She is like an open book but difficult to figure out because people don't pay attention ''

'' And you... Do you pay attention? ''

'' No.. I have had only little conversations with her but she is like us Logan and I expect you of all people to know this since you are the best at reading people '' she frowned '' You are just so obsessed with controlling her '' she began walking way

'' where are you going to ''

'' To find Maria '' I watched her reach the door and stop'' Logan ''

'' hmmm ''

'' Maria... Maria is my friend... And because of you, I may lose her'' she left. I guess the time has finally come to execute the rule number 11

She is like us. As much as I hate to admit, Bianca was right. One can not break what is already broken. '' Fuck '' I let out in frustration, using my hand to brush my hair back and forth messing it up in the process. The whole event replayed in my head. Maria made me feel like a monster like my father. '' What have I done? Who the fuck did that to her? Who the fuck hurt her like that?''

Flashback

'' This is the one time I am going to say this. This is your territory and I have no interest in whatever you do with it.... I have no interest in you or your friends... There is a very big gap between us, a line that I have no interest in crossing ''

Back to present

Her words from that day. She had no interest in Me. She made it clear that day and she acknowledged that I was in charge. Then Logan, what the fuck is your problem. Why can't you just let her go? Why does she keep bugging me? Why has she suddenly become the only thing I think about? Why does she appear as a threat in a way that I can not comprehend? She is like us.

'' The school will be talking about this for weeks'' whispering to myself. I have to shut them up. Whatever happened today dies today. Have to make sure no mother fucker says a word about this and nothing is posted online