Don't Let Me Go (Book 1)

Chapter 48

'' Logan''My hand on my chest as I tried to steady my breaths. I probably panicked because I wasn't expecting anyone here, especially him.

'' She designed this and the one back at ours... not like it matters to you'' he walks to me slowly and the moment he reaches me, That familiar smell of alcohol hits my nose and I frowned. He was drunk.

'' You are drunk'' I tell him and he flashed a smile

'' Am I not allowed to be?'' trying his best to remain in control but anyone would know that Logan was drunk.

'' Your sister is looking for you... she is worried'' I informed while I reached for my purse to take out my phone so I could call her when his next words stopped me

'' and you? You are not''

'' I don't see reasons to be worried about you Logan, so get yourself together before someone sees you like this''

ha,ha,ha he laughs out loud. The disappointment and frustration in his tone filled the atmosphere. He looked at me and our gazes met '' But you would be worried about Alex wouldn't you''

'' Pardon?'' I instantly got lost

'' Alex'' he announced then took a step closer to me. '' You care about him, don't you Maria... you would be worried about him''

'' This conversation just took a very complicated turn''

'' Yeah yeah, whatever...'' he turns away from me. I watched as he lifted his head to the sky with his eyes closed, embracing the breeze

'' I... I should really call Bianca'' about reaching for my phone again

'' Why Maria'' it came out like a soft cry and my heartbeat skipped. '' Why do you do this to me'' he slowly turns to look at me, dark, mournful eyes '' Why do you fucking smile... smile at them, smile at Alex, smile at Gorge. What the fuck makes you give them that laughter''

'' Are you insane Logan''

'' Am I?'' he grins ''Yes I am... I am fucking insane because of you... I don't know what has gotten over me but I know that I hate it. I hate when you smile for them and laugh and you even give what you treasure so much, your time. Maria. Why''

'' Logan what I do is at my own will and none of your business.''

'' I see...'' he took, a few unstable steps towards me covering the little space between us. '' and me... you have never smiled for me panting, his voice grew huskier. Eyes got me trapped in my position

'' Do you even know what it means to smile Logan... or laugh... none of our encounters has called for a smile or laughter Logan... You hate me''

'' You think I hate you Maria'' There was a sudden change in the way he called my name. '' You don't what to know what I fucking feel''

'' I don't think... I know you hate me, I know you see me as a nobody, a girl who is just in your way, a girl who you can get rid of any time without being questioned so How about you leave it at that.'' it was best I leave this way. Trying to help him while he is drunk will only put me in a difficult position. I turned around to leave but he caught my arm. Stopping me at my track

''And Alex?'' I faced him again

'' Alex is my friend''

'' friend...'' he repeats weakly '' I see... and we are enemies''

'' exactly'' I couldn't agree more '' now let me go'' my eyes fell on his hand which slowly dropped to his side and he said almost immediately.

'' how much will it cost''

'' Pardon?''

'' how much will it cost, your friendship'' Is he that drunk or he is just being stupid right now?

'' You don't fucking think that you can buy friendship do you?''

'' why not, after all, isn't that what you value so much, and I have it'' closing the little space I once created '' How much will it cost me your friendship? That smile of yours, your laughter. How much will it cost me, all of you, Maria '' he did it again, The way he called my name.

'' yes I do value money... but friendship is the one thing that I will not sell especially to you Logan'' I snapped at the now furious Logan. I want to leave, leave this place, leave Logan, leave this party and be in the comfort of my house. I turned around to leave and his next action took me by surprise.

He caught my hand, pulled me back and crushed his lips to mine. Fuck. The kiss was hard and demanding. My hand was on his chest, with an effort to push him away. I can't let him, I can't let him do this the second time. I will not hate him, this time I will hate myself. I struggled for freedom from his wets my lips. His hand wrapped around my shoulder and the other around my waist. Locking my body to his. Trapped in his cage. The smell of alcohol made me feel sick. The tip of his tongue licked my lips, seeking entrance. I wouldn't let him, I think

'' Maria'' That low and seductive voice whispered my name and like a spell, my body accepted him. Fuck. I opened my mouth, letting him in and instantly overwhelmed with pure pleasure. The kiss started raw and demanding, desperate until it slowly turned very gentle as if in slow motion, passionate and needing, our tongues collided, his grip lessened, his hand on my shoulder travelled up my nape, using his thumb, moving in a slow rhythmic circle against my skin,

'' ahh,'' I let out as he kissed down my neck, his wet tongue against my skin, filling me with this strange desirable sensation, pressure, need, down to the hollow between my breast '' No.. no!!'' I protested, pushing him away with every strength in me. Panting, breathless and in shock at what just happened, what I just did, what we just did.

With the confusion that overwhelmed me. I slapped him and ran away. Into the crowded house. Feeling embarrassed and scared that someone must have seen what just happened. I hurried through the crowd wanting to leave immediately when someone caught my arm and I jerked in panic.

'' Maria'' it was Alex. '' are you alright?'' confused and worried

'' I am fine'' trying too hard to keep my cool '' I just need to leave''

'' leave, but you haven't stayed long''

'' You are leaving?'' Upset Bianca showed out of nowhere '' You just wanted to leave without telling me'' She crossed her arm. If only I could tell her what was going on. Tell her that her brother kissed me and I kissed him back.

'' I am so sorry...i...'' Bianca caught me off

'' are you alright? It seems like you are having a fever, your cheeks are...red'' I cupped my face in my hand and damn, I was on fire

'' I am feeling a bit sick... I have to home''

'' then let me drive; Alex offered

'' No...no I am fine... By the way, Bianca, Logan is in the garden'' Not caring to hear if they had any more to say to me I hurried away. I can't believe I kissed Logan and actually enjoyed