Resisting Temptation

[110] Back in France

You shut the door behind you and placed your bags down near it. The crumpling of the bags woke up Diego. You took out the items you had bought and started arranging them into your luggage. He sat up staring at you.
Diego: hey, sorry you found me in here it's just that I needed someone to talk to but you weren't here and well I ended up falling asleep as I waited for you.
You: it's fine.
Diego: but- wait. What?
You: how are you holding up?
Diego: you're not mad?
You shook your head no and took a seat on the bed next to him
You: how have you been?
Diego: okay
You: you don't look okay
Diego: it's kind of hard to feel well after loosing a kid
You: I can't relate but I know it must be hard. And I want you to know that im so sorry.
Diego: I just don't get it.
You: get what?
Diego: why this had to happen. What did I do to deserve this?
You: I wish I had the answer to your question
Diego: it's so unfair. Stephanie didn't deserve to go through this. She's having a much harder time than me trying to cope.
You: it's going to take her some time but I'll sure she'll be alright. And you will too.
Diego: I can't wrap my head around all of this. It all happened so fast and I couldn't do anything about it.
You: hey hey. It's not your fault.
Diego: but what if it is.
You: what are you saying?
Diego: what if this is my karma for how I have treated women. How I treated you.
You: hey no. Snap out of it. That's NOT the reason. Diego sometimes things happen for a reason. This is not your fault.
Diego: I beg to differ
You placed your hands on his
You: stop it. This is not your fault. It's not anyone's fault.
He started to tear up a bit
Diego: when I heard those words come out of the doctors mouth I swear I wanted it all to be a dream. I wanted someone to pinch me and wake me up to tell me this was all a bad dream.
You stayed quiet not knowing what to say.
Diego: I can't help but think this was all my fault y/n.
You: but it's not
Diego sighed
Diego: can I hug you? I could really use one right now.
You: mhm
He embraced you in a hug quietly letting out his tears. You hugged back and combed his hair back.
You: it's all going to be okay. You gotta be strong and carry on.
Diego: I know but I can't
You: yes you can. It's just going to take time.
You tightened your grip around Diego which caused him to let go. He wiped away his tears and cleared his throat as he stood up.
Diego: gosh I'm sorry. I don't know what I'm even doing here. I'm just causing more problems for you and Joao.
You: we broke up.
Diego: you did?
You: well I broke up with him
Diego: oh. How'd that go?
You: not so great. But the good thing is that I can finally go back to my old life.
Diego: you're going back to France?
You: yeah, I'm leaving tomorrow morning
Diego: when are you coming back?
You: coming back? Diego I'm leaving. For good. I'm not coming back this time.
Diego: what?
You: sit, let's talk.
He did as you said
You: I know you and me had our thing but it's over. I'm going back to France and I'm just going to do my own thing. I've gotta get away from all this drama. It's not good for me. For us. I think it's better if we go our separate ways.
Diego: what? No! How can you say that? You know I love you. We can try forming a relationship! Who cares what anyone has to say? Y/n I need you. Without you I'll be a complete mess. You brought back the spark in my life that I was missing. You're what I need to be happy.
You: no Diego. I'm not. You don't need me to be happy. I can't grant that feeling.
Diego: you do it everyday, without even noticing. Y/n just by existing and me being able to see you everyday you make my life better. Please don't leave. Stay. We'll figure it out together.
You: Diego. Don't make this harder on me. I need my space. We've never been good for each other and you know it.
Diego: how are you going to let go of us so easily? Y/n there's something here.
You: I'm not. This isn't easy for me. But I'll learn to let go.
Diego: do you not love me? What is it? What can I do for you to stay with me?
You: but of course I love you. Diego, I'll always ALWAYS love you. But this just can't be. If it was meant to be then everything would align perfectly for us to get together.
Diego: your actions say the opposite of what's coming out of your mouth.
You: you've got to understand-
Diego: you can't leave me.
You: my decision is final.
Diego: don't do this.
You: I have to. For you AND for me.
Just then Kevin called Diego's name from downstairs.
You: you should go see what he wants before he sees you in here.
Diego: please. Reconsider.
You: Diego-
Diego: if you won't try for us then I will. I won't give up on you so easily. We'll be together one day y/n. I promise you.
And with that he stood up and left your room. You sighed laying in bed trying to figure out what you were going to do with your life.
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The next day you woke up early to catch your flight. You fixed up your room and walked downstairs with your luggage. Your dad was taking you to the airport. The team gathered to say goodbye which took everything in you not to cry.
Kevin: te cuidas y/n. Te quiero.
Brianna: I'll see you soon
(Brianna was staying a couple more weeks with Kevin and was later meeting you back in France)
You hugged both of them and smiled.
Dad: bueno pues. Ya vámonos.
You waved back at everyone and started walking out to the front. Your dad put your luggage in the trunk and you were about to hop inside the truck when you heard your name being called. You looked towards the door and saw Diego. He walked towards you and embraced you in a hug.
Diego: have a safe flight. Be careful.
You: thanks, I will.
Your dad stared at the two of you with a glare.
Diego: Please, come back soon. We've got an unfinished story to finish.
You smiled.
You: good bye Diego.
He quickly leaned in placing a kiss on your lips
Dad: AY YA!
You couldn't help but let out a chuckle.
Diego: take care!
You nodded and waved.
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You boarded your plane and were off to France. Once you arrived you went home and rested. The next day you met with your manager. You had many projects to take care of. But most importantly the Victoria secret runway which had been pushed back a couple months. It was now only 3 months away and you needed to start preparing. You had a professional trainer help you get all the steps down. Diego kept trying to contact you but you ignored him and cut off all communication with him. You wanted to be left alone and forget about him. It was what was best for the both of you.
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3 months later
You were only 2 weeks away from the runway taking place and it was all everyone was talking about. Over the past few months you had gained some pounds and were trying to get rid of them but no matter how hard you tried you couldn't. You were bloated all the time but today, you were super bloated. You stood in the mirror and groaned.
Brianna: what's wrong?
She said observing you from the bed.
You: IM SO BLOATED!!
Brianna: oh y/nnnnn! It's normal! It's okay to be bloated.
You: no! The runway is in 2 weeks and I'm so fat! I've been eating strictly on a diet to keep my form.
Brianna: you're just exaggerating
You: I'm not.
Just then you got a call from your doctor. You grabbed your phone and answered.
You: hello!
Brianna stared at you as you answered.
You: yes! I'll be there. Thank you!
Brianna: who was that?
You: my doctor
Brianna: doctor? What's going on?
You: I don't know. Somethings wrong with my period.
Brianna: huh?
You: ever since I got on birth control I haven't had a single period. And well, I'm worried.
Brianna: woah. When did you get on birth control? I didn't know you were on it.
You: ufff maybe like sixish months ago? When I was with Diego.
Brianna: oh. That's super weird. I'm on birth control too but it's the opposite for me. I have irregular periods.
You: I don't know. But I'm going to get it checked out tomorrow.
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A/N: the chapters are only going to get better after this oneeeee!! Comment "🌹" to be reminded of the next update!!