Resisting Temptation

[124] Plans

You: Diego this is not what I came for
Diego groaned
Diego: you're no fun to be around anymore
You: because this isn't a time to mess around, im being serious. we're here to talk about our child
Diego: fine let's get it over with. we need to talk about what is going to work best for not only us but our kid in the future. I think we should consider getting back-
You: I don't want to get back with you.
Silence filled the room and Diego gave you a puzzled look.
Diego: yeah I thought you would say that
You: look don't take this the wrong way but I just don't feel the same way about you as I did before
You lied. Truth was that you're still in love with him but are too scared to get hurt again. After all it was the thing he was best at.
Diego nodded.
You: we can co parent, it'll be easier that way
He nodded but stayed silent
You: can you say something?
Diego: what do you want me to say? sounds like you've already made up your mind.
You: there you go AGAIN wanting to start an argument! can you ever go without-
Diego: I don't want my kid to grow up in a broken household.
You: Diego you have to consider-
Diego: actually, I WON'T let my kid grow up in a fucked up household. Simple as that.
You: fucked in what way? we're not the first people to have a kid while being separated. besides it's not like we're married or something!
Diego: married or not, YOU out of all people should know what it's like to grow up without a parent figure.
You: DON'T compare my situation with this. It was completely different.
Diego: not so much. I want my kid to have the perfect family. To have the privilege to grow up with both his parents. Don't you? Wouldn't you have wanted to live with BOTH of your parents?
You: I don't want to keep touching that topic,  not everything is perfect in this world. And clearly we're not coming to an agreement, so it's my time to go.
You stood up from the couch grabbing your purse. Diego stood up after you.
Diego: I know you're lying.
You: lying? about what?
Diego: that you're not dying to get back together with me and form this family you've always wanted. Your perfect family.
You: you're wasting my time. I let you know my choice and I'm not changing my mind.
Diego: look at me
You didn't.
Diego: look. at. me. y/n.
He grabbed your chin gently and made you face him, locking eyes with you.
Diego: why are you avoiding me? why is it that you won't even look at me?
You started deep into the eyes of the person you've loved your whole life not knowing what to say or do.
Diego: I know you still feel the same way I do.
He grabbed your hands and held them up towards his chest.
Diego: there's no way that we could ever forget each other, or even yet, hate each other. not with everything we've been through. I tried during this time you were away, and look where I am. Back at the square one just like when I was when I was a teenager. Still in love with the same girl.
He tucked your hair behind your ears.
Diego: talk to me. what's stopping you?
You sighed.
You: I'm afraid.
Diego: afraid of what?
You: you.
Diego took a step back
Diego: of me? why?
You: I'm afraid that you'll end up hurting me like you always do. I've given you my heart too many times and every single time you've broken it.
Diego: I know I haven't been the best at keeping your heart safe. But listen to me when I say that I can't imagine a life where I'm happy and you aren't a part of it. I won't hurt you this time.
You observed his face carefully trying to decipher whether he was being honest or not.
He leaned in placing a soft kiss on your lips. You pulled away immediately and slapped him.
You: don't ever, kiss me again.
You furiously started walking towards the door and of course Diego ran after you and reached for your arm which you managed to pull away.
Diego: y/n wait don't go. Listen I love you. I promise I won't hurt you. I promise.
You opened the front door.
You: it's too late for your promises don't you think?
You walked out shutting the door behind you.
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Back at home you laid in bed contemplating the interaction you had with Diego and all the words he said to you. You questioned whether you were too hard on him. Obviously you still loved him but you just weren't sure if you could fully trust him again. He was right about one thing though. You've always wanted to have the perfect family you never had. And of course you wanted to form it with Diego.
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Diego on the other hand was on a call with Kevin trying to figure out what to do.
Kevin: woah woah woah you kissed her????
Diego: yes, OUT OF INSTINCT. I didn't mean to, it just sort of happened.
Kevin: well did she kiss back??
He smirked and raised his brows at Diego through the screen.
Diego: no, she slapped me instead.
Kevin: OUUUUUU.
He burst out laughing.
Diego: what's so funny?
Kevin: obviously the fact that you got slapped!
Diego: cut it out Kevin. I called you for advice not for you to be making fun of me. I seriously spoke to her with an open heart and it's as if she just brushed it off. I mean, was she being for real when she said she doesn't feel the same way towards me anymore?
Kevin: I doubt that. I know for a fact that girl still loves you with all her heart.
Diego: then? why won't she prove it.
Kevin: didn't you say she said she's afraid you'll hurt her? you have to gain her trust back.
Diego: how??
Kevin: why don't you start by apologizing for the kiss??
Diego: was the kiss too much?
Kevin: ehhhh a little yeah. you kinda fucked up.
Diego: should I get her chocolates to apologize?
Kevin: pfffffft chocolates? seriously? is that how much she means to you?
Diego: you're right. I have to do something big.
Kevin: exactly.
Diego stayed silent on the call for a while trying to come up with a perfect plan.
He chuckled.
Diego: and I think I got just the right idea.
Kevin: what exactly are you thinking?
Diego: flowers, mariachi, her house, 7:00am.
Kevin: NOW WE'RE TALKING!!
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