i need to be new

July 16, 2026

I'm in a dream

And will I wake up in the morning if I stay in it 

What's the probability 

You love me

But I could make you hate me

Probably without trying 

So I stand up again 

Before one of them 

doesn't matter, they're all the same 

deep within

In the dingy natural light 

from the see-through curtain 

in our apocalyptic Talibanistan 

And I take my shirt off 

Get swallowed by an empty heart

with glass eyes

I think it is morn; it is not

But when it is morning 

I shall cry 

I don't want anymore lies

Why should I care for your company? 

There is a watery heat and some streetlights

Or are we all wearing coats and up before light? 

They are 9,000 miles away

I forgot

and they don't use miles

A chance for more violence

when shall you hurt me? 

you won't be able to

after I cut out all my nerves

Maybe I like being lonely

I never liked the relapses but I had thought they were gone

I was right about him too; I told you

I'm insane; send up a prayer for me? 

I'm anxious

Men will never love you enough