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Blind Jealousy-Part 1 (Newt)

Newt's P.O.V

I don't get it. I don't understand. She says that she loves me. She says that I'm her only. She says that I mean everything to her. She says that I'm her world.

Then, why won't she just say something? Why wouldn't she speak up when Greenie gets touchy? When he just holds her waist every time he walks past her? When he always brushes his hand over hers? When he touches her shoulder? When he stands so close to her? Why won't she just say something?

I stood there with my arms crossed and a scowl on my face. She was just nodding as Greenie spoke. When he did his usual thing of resting his arm on her shoulder she just laughed it off as she removed it.

If she wants to be with Greenie, fine. She can be with him. If she wants to be so bloody close to him, whatever. It's been quite obvious this past week she doesn't actually care about us. If she did, she would say something. She wouldn't just say thanks when I said something.

Shaking my head, I grumbled under my breath as I stormed off. Glaring at the air, I just walked to my hut, opened the door, and slammed it shut. This is ridiculous. All of this is ridiculous.

Pacing around the circular room, I ran my hands through my hair as I tried to take deep breaths. Every time I close my eyes though, all I see is them. They're all buddy buddy and happy. They're all nice and cuddled up while I sit on the sidelines of my own relationship.

Letting out a frustrated groan, I leaned against the wall while just trying to wrap my head around it. The room's just so stuffy and everything about right now sucks. Everyone and everything absolutely sucks.

Deciding to just take a walk, I opened my door to go somewhere. Anywhere. I don't know.

"There you are,"a familiar voice greeted. Face to face with Y/N, I just wondered where she got the audacity to show up like she did nothing wrong.

"What do you want?"I asked quickly.

"To see you. It's been a while since we've actually talked. I swear it's been forever,"She shrugged, a small smile on her face as she shuffled her feet.

"Gee. I wonder why,"I grumbled.

"What?"

"Don't play dumb. You know what."

"Newt, what did I do?"

"Are we really doing this?"I asked in disbelief.

"Just tell me what I did wrong,"She kept going, her eyebrows furrowing in confusion and a frown now on her lips. Tired of the games, I shut the door in her face. "Newt, what did I do?"She asked louder, banging on the door. Ignoring her, I sat in my hammock, my feet on the floor as I rocked back and forth. "Newt, please? Can we talk about this?"

"Go away,"I demanded.

"Newt, please?"

Not answering, I kept my cold stare at absolutely nothing.

"Fine. I'm coming in,"She announced.

"Don't you da-"
Before I could finish my sentence she opened my door. Stepping inside, she shut it behind her. Throwing my glare towards her now, I didn't let her know how much it hurt.

"Whatever I did, we can talk about it. We always talk things through. That's part of why we're so great together,"She smiled.

"I'm sure you'd look better with Greenie,"I spat. At my words her face became devoid of color as she slowly shook her head. "Yes. You would. He's been all over you, and you let it happen,"I reminded her, standing up. Dropping her head, she avoided my eyes and mumbled something.

"What?"I snapped.

"It's not like that,"She insisted.

"Well, it sure looks like it. Laughing when he touches you. You'd probably be with him if I wasn't here to hold you back."

"No. I don't want anyone but you,"She tried to convince me.

"Yeah right. With the way you act happy when he hangs all over you, you sure don't seem to want me."

"I-I do. I reject him every time. I only want to be with you."

"Then, how about you act like it?"

"That's not fair,"She whispered.

"What's not fair is you being alright with him putting his hands all over you when you say you love me."

"Don't you dare talk about me like that. I have been nothing but loyal to you,"She snapped, facing me. With narrowed and fiery eyes, the anger was practically radiating off of every inch of her skin.

"Just because you've turned him down, doesn't mean you don't want his attention."

"I don't! I don't want anyone's stupid attention!"She screamed.

"Then, act like it! If you really don't like him, show it!"I yelled back.

"You're not being fair! I have done nothing but love you! I just can't be rude!"

"If you cared about me, being rude so he would leave you alone wouldn't be a big deal!"

"Don't you ever say I don't care about you! Ever!"She demanded, her eyes brimming with tears.

"Then, act like you do!"I shouted, feeling my own sting my eyes.

"That's not fair! It's not fair! It's not fair! It's not fair!"She screamed, tears pouring down her cheeks. "It's not fair! It's easy for you because you're a guy! But it's not easy for me! It never was, and you don't even care!"

"Y/N-"
"All you can think about is yourself! That's all you care about! You don't care about me! You don't even notice!"She screamed, her voice scratchy. Before I could get a word in she dropped to her knees. Burying her head in her hands, she sobbed. Her entire body was shaking as tears spilled down her face. Taking shallow gulps of air, she broke down.

"It's okay, love. I'm here. I'm right here,"I promised, sitting beside her. Pulling her into my arms, I held her as she buried her face in my neck. Clinging to me, she dug her nails into my back as she kept crying. "It's okay. I'm right here. I'm here, and I love you. No matter what, I will always adore you. I'll always, always, always love you."

"It's not fair. It's not fair, Newt,"She said through hiccuped sobs.

"What's not fair, love?"I whispered, rubbing circles on her shoulders to calm her down.

"It's not fair that I'm the only girl. It's not fair when there are Greenies that only care that I'm dating a guy instead of what I feel. It's not fair when I have to watch what I say in case they're the type to get angry when they hear no. That isn't fair,"She whimpered, her voice shaking. Losing my ability to speak, I froze as I took in her words. All this time, she just wanted to be left alone. She just wanted to feel safe. She just wanted to be free in her own home. She was suffering in silence, and I didn't even notice. I just thought the worst of her. I didn't stop to think about what she was actually going through.

"I'm so sorry. I'm so, so, so, so sorry,"I promised. Letting out hiccuped sobs, she didn't say anything back. "I'm sorry, and I do love you. I know I didn't act like it, but I do. I love you, and I'm sorry I didn't look out for you the way I should have."

"I'm so tired, Newt. I'm so drained,"She whispered. Picking her up, I pulled her close to my body. Wrapping her arms around my shoulders, she buried her head in my chest as I laid with her in my hammock. Running my fingers down her spine, I kissed her forehead as she wrapped her arms around my waist. Resting her head under my chin, she just let her breathing gradually even out as she wore herself out.

"I love you too,"She mumbled against my skin.

"I know, and I'll love you forever,"I smiled. "And don't worry about Greenie. I'll take care of it,"I promised.

"What are you going to do?"

"Doesn't matter. All that's important is that he won't even look your way after tomorrow,"I absolutely swore. Nodding her head, she fell asleep in my arms.

In the meantime, I silently put my plan together.