Them. | The Final Installment of the Him Series | Joe Jonas Fanfiction

Fifty Four.

Two weeks into being home with the girls being alone, with the exception of one visit from Joe already, a week ago. Thankfully, we're able to see each other again, today. As more time passes, it's been a bit easier with the girls, being able to fall into a groove with them. I'm sure it was the same for Joe, only harder to do so while being on the road. Regardless, though it's been easier with the girls, I've been struggling myself, unexpectedly. The miscarriage has been playing on my mind more the past few days, I think the more I think of the holidays, with it being mid-September I've started thinking of Halloween, Thanksgiving, and Christmas. Now knowing that we won't have anything to announce anymore... it makes me sad. That was my plan. Announce at the holidays. I thought it would be cute. Super typical... but cute. Aside from that, the nightmares have become more frequent as more time passes without Joe home. And it's harder and harder to fall back asleep after them. I've found Willa and Delphine sleeping with me a few nights, though I'm grateful it hasn't become a question for each night. As much as it sucks to have no one in bed with me, I'd rather the girls stay comfortable in their own instead of relying on sleeping with us. It was such a pain to break them from the habit.

"Mommy, is daddy coming today?" Willa asks as I sit on the couch, looking at the both of them coloring tiredly.

I yawn, nodding. "Yeah, baby, daddy will be here today."

"When?" she asks.

"He's on his way baby, but he's traveling so I don't know how much longer."

"Okay," she sighs.

"I'm sorry, baby," I give her a sympathetic look. "I know you want daddy. He's coming."

She gives me a small grin. "Mommy, you okay?"

I nod. "Yeah, sweetheart, I'm okay."

She goes back to coloring with Delphine, making me get up, going to Jessica's room where she and Londyn are hanging out, knocking gently.

"Come in," Jessica says.

"Hey, I'm sorry, do you mind coming out with the girls? I need to go take a nap or something. I haven't been sleeping well and I'm exhausted."

"Yeah, of course," Jess nods, getting up and immediately walking past me to the living room.

"Thanks," I mumble to her, starting to turn as Londyn grabs my hand gently, stopping me.

"Hey," she starts gently.

"Hey," I reply, turning toward her. "What's up?"

"Are you okay? You've been... out of it. Sad kinda. I just wanna make sure."

I nod. "Yeah, like I said, I haven't been sleeping well and dealing with the girls without Joe is taking a bit of a toll, but I'll be fine."

"You're sure that's it?" she asks.

I nod. "Yeah, I'm good."

"Okay," she nods. "I just wanted to check."

"Thanks," I tell her, walking out with her on my heel to see Jess sitting with the girls, now coloring with them. I grin, walking over and crouching down. "Hey girls."

"Hi mommy," Willa grins.

"Hi mama!" Delphine squeals.

"Hi," I grin tiredly. "Jess and Londyn are gonna hang out with you for a bit okay? Mama's gonna go try to rest, she's really tired."

"Okay!" Willa grins.

"Okay, mama!" Delphine giggles.

"I love you," I tell them, kissing both of their heads.