Riptide (a lauren jauregui love story)

Part 12

Lauren's pov
I woke up early in the morning and got ready for the studio. I grabbed my phone and money then a sleepy Camila waddled out of her room.
"Morning Camzi!"
"Morning Lau! Don't forget we have a date today after the studio but the girls will be around so no making out!"
"Cool!" I said jumping down the stairs into the kitchen grabbing a pre made breakfast smoothie and my jacket. I drank the smoothie and then got a text saying Jackson was outside.
"Bye Camz!" I yell up the stairs then run out of the house. I run into Jackson's car.
"Hey babe!" He says and there go the butterflies. Que the warmth in my heart. And bam the feelings. It's like a routine now. He drove to the studio and we entered inside and right to Studio A, passing all of the business men in fresh tuxes and producers in snapbacks, some aspiring artists. I passed two girls carrying demos with their eyes all puffy from their dreams being crushed. I was the lucky one. Yeah I had talent but lots of people have talent. Yeah I have the personality and charisma but so do lots of others, I was genuinely lucky. I was lucky to get what I got. I was lucky and I'm so glad that I have luck. We walked in and Nela sits with a guitar in hand and Pia Mia and another blonde who was staring at her phone sit on a couch on The opposite end. Pia nudges her. "That's her!" She whispers. The blonde looks up and I'm faced with the beautiful Gigi Hadid. I was very confused but brushed it off.
"Hi I'm Lauren nice to meet you!" I held out a hand and she shook it. "Gigi!"
"Hey Lau!" Pia says and hugs me. I hug back.
"Hey Pia!"
"So Lauren shall we get to working." I nodded. We worked for a long time maybe 5 or 6 hours. We goofed around most of the time but that's how we get work done. I got to know Gigi and Pia a lot more. Before we dispersed.
"Hey Lauren!" Pia asks tapping my shoulder.
"Yeah what's up Pia?"
"Do you wanna grab lunch or something?"
"I actually have to get home but you guys can come if you want to."
"Really that's so sweet."
"Yeah it's no problem just follow Jackson home."
I told Jackson the plan and he agreed but we had to go pick up Jax first because the damn dog was home alone all day. Jackson is a dumbass. We picked up Jax and he sat on my lap as we drive to my house. We all got out and I used my key to get in.
"Hey hey y'all!" I say into the house and Jax barks.
"You miss Auntie Camzi don't you!" I say in a baby voice. He barks again. Camila appears from the hallway with Ally.
"Hey Alz! And Camzi!"
"Who might the guests be?" Ally asks.
"Right I forgot To introduce y'all! Pia and Gigi meet Ally and my girlfriend Camila! Ally and Camila meet Pia and Gigi." They shake hands.
"So you have a girlfriend?" Gigi asks.
"I told you!" Pia says.
"Wait you told her what?"
"That you were off the market!"
"Whatever do you mean?"
"I saw you giggling at those texts! You're not slick!" I blushed I actually was reading old texts from Jackson but not important.
"So you guys don't have an issue with me being Bi?" I ask.
"No I'm bi!" Pia says.
"Woah revelations!" Ally says.
"Yeah it's a recent development that was literally my coming out to anyone but G!" She says.
"Wow congrats!" Camila says with an underlying depth of sarcasm and jealousy behind the words.
"Good job little Pia!"
"Oh where's Mani and DJ?"
"They're upstairs listening to Beyoncé or watching tv!"
"Mani D-Mac come down stairs!"
"Unless it's Beyoncé no we're watching dance moms!" Normani yells.
"Ok well Jax is here and guests!" They run down the stairs towards me.
"Oh there's my little Jax!" Dinah says and he jumps into her arms.
"Who are the visitors?" Normani asks.
"This is Pia and Gigi! Pia and Gigi my badmates; Normani and Dinah!"
"Nice to meet you guys!" They say. We all take off our jackets because it was raining and hang them up. Jackson comes to my side.
"You're staring at Pia and Camila's getting pissed.Just warning you." I nodded and shifted my gaze away from Pia. I focused on my coat. I put it up and then walked into the living room.
"So tell us about yourselves!" Ally says.
"Why don't we just play like 2 truths and a lie?" Dinah suggests.
"Good idea DJ I like were your mind is at!" I say and high five her.
"Ok so I'll go first!" Gigi says.
"I have naturally brown hair, I'm a model, and I live in calabasas."
"Uhm those are all truths?" I ask.
"Nope I live in New York City!"
"Oh cool!"
"Your turn Pia."
"Ok I'm a singer/dancer, I have a boyfriend, and Mia is my real first name!"
"Ooh that's difficult but I'm going wih Mia is not your real first name!"
"Yeah right on!" She said and leaned over to high five me.
"Wait who is your boyfriend?"
"I'm dating Jackson!"
"Y...you're what?" I stuttered. He's mine. No matter what. I don't care he's mine, mine till the end of time. I may be possessive but get over it.
"No were just kidding I'm dating a guy from my hometown!"
"Oh thank goodness!"
"Why are you so relieved?"
"Uhm it's just like that's so awkward because it's like we're friends, me and Jackson are...friends. it would be awkward if you guys broke up or whatever or like yeah whatever!"
"Smooth! Nice way to recover." Jackson whispers in my ear.
"Stop!" I whisper yell and slap his arm.
"Ok Lauren what's up with you and Jackson?" Gigi asks.
"Whatever do you mean?"
"I mean you guys are like inseparable. How'd you meet and become best friends."
"Yeah well he saved my life and stuff so I kinda have a connection with him. He's like an older brother who keeps me from doing stupid shit but also teases me alot." He's more than that. He's the only person I dream about and always think about. Only person I would die for. He gives me feelings I can't describe that...that even my own body doesn't understand. He makes me doubt every decision I ever made. He makes me confused. I love Camila but I care too fucking much about him. He makes me jealous and over protective and possessive. He makes me feel normal and not broken. He makes me forget about my past and love life. He makes me happy and not depressed although I'm stuck in a slightly miserable relationship with a girl who starts fights every 20 minutes. He makes the world go away and I'm ridiculously in love with him. That's what he is. That's what I wish I could say. Now I'm just confused.
"Ok I understand!"
"So Truth or dare?" Jackson asks. We àll nod. I sit between Camila and Jackson. Camila looked angry.
"Hey what's wrong?" I ask quietly.
"Today was supposed to just be the two of us!"
"They wanted to hang out and I thought it just made sense."
"Well I wish you'd put a little more effort! It's like you don't even care." She wishes what. I put more effort into this than she does that's for sure. I don't care? She goes out with Austin everyday.
"Lauren you first truth or dare?" Normani asks.
"Truth."
"What's your favorite thing about Camila?" Oh I was so ready to be top notch passive aggressive right now.
"Well I love how stubborn she is. How she makes problems and starts fights when there's no issue. If there actually is an issue it's her fault because she's acting like a fucking child. She's just so cute how she completely doesn't care about the relationship but then accuses me of not putting in effort. While I'm here being faithful and sweet and making her food and buying her shit she's out with dorito boy probably making out in some fucking shed. Not giving a fuck about my feelings because that's just what she does. She's fucking immature and treats us as if we're some sociology pair project for a 3rd grade class not like the adult relationship it's supposed to be!" I yell before getting up and stomping out of the house. I March down the street before Jackson comes behind me and walks at my side.
"Jackson go home!"
"No I'm not letting you go out alone in this state."
"I'm fine!"
"You're not fine what's wrong?"
"Nothing's wring!"
"Somethings wrong."
"Nothing!"
"Something!"
"I'm can't tell you!"
"Why not?"
"Because I'm confused. I think I love her or know I love her and care about her when our relationship is a fucking mess but then I see you and I get these feelings and I don't understand. I don't know what it is about you, God you're just so ugh. You make me confused!" He cups my face and leans in stopping just before my lips.
"Do what your heart tells you to!"
"What about my morals?"
"Do what your heart decides, decide if you think what we have is worth going after or if working it out with her is what's best, no matter what I'll still be here waiting."
"Thank you!"
"Of course! I love you!"
"I..."
"You don't have to say it back."
"Thanks!"
"Now come on and let's go get your girl back!"
I smile and walk back with him. He's so understanding. He makes me confused.