Riptide (a lauren jauregui love story)

Part 19

Lauren's pov
After my "date" with Jackson last night he asked me on a real date for tomorrow night. I said yes because why not. I was showering for our date when I heard me and Dinah's room door open. I ignored it because it was just Dinah almost definitely. I changed into sweatpants and a sports bra because I was only going into the room. My bruises could be seen on the very bottom of my stomach and my back. I never wore anything like this around the girls but now they know so it wouldn't hurt its just Dinah. I trust Dinah. I walked outside of the bathroom and saw a figure on the other side of the room but the sun from the window obscured my view. I brushed my hair.
"Hey DJ what are you doing standing in a corner?"
"It's not DJ!" The figure walked closer and her big brown eyes met mine. I rolled my eyes.
"What do you want Camila?"
She came into view and her eyes surveyed my body which I realized was kind of exposed. She bit her lip.
"Camila?" She snapped out of her trance.
"Sorry! I just uh wow you have a nice body!"
"Did you come here to comment on my body or talk?"
"I want you back!"
"I don't!"
"Lauren come on we were so great together! I love you! I love the way you fiddle with your neck whenever they make you wear a choker. I love the way your hair looks when you come out of the shower. I love your eyes. I love your laugh and I miss you!"
"Camila I don't love you anymore!"
"Lauren you know you do!" I began to change so I wasn't off track. I turned away and took off my sports bra and put on a real one.
"I don't! Our relationship was so one sided. I bought you things I made time for you but when I said I had things to do suddenly I wasn't putting in effort. You were selfish. I loved you but all you ever wanted was to do what you wanted. I gave you what you wanted and when you didn't get your way you whined and pouted till I gave in. Then after I gave you the world you want more so you went to Shawn for sex."
"I'm sorry!"
"God if you had just asked damn I would done it but I was holding on till you were ready! Do you really think I'm still a virgin?" I said with a hand on my hip. Still in just a bra. I took off my sweatpants and changed into jeans
"I don't know but we were great yeah we had our kinks but that's what made us, us."
"No you were showered in affection from me while I could barely receive a compliment from you. We weren't great together. I don't love you. I don't want you. You cant have me."
"Lauren please I want you!"
"But you have Shawn!"
"I want you!"
"Silly Camila always wanting what you can't have!"
"Lauren I can have you! I want you so I'll have you!"
"I'm not a possession!"
"I'm sorry baby I don't mean that!"
"Don't call me baby!"
"Lolo you're being irrational!"
"Don't call me Lolo either!" I said Putting on a white t shirt with a long black cardigan.
"Lauren I love you and in so so sorry for what I did! I truly am sorry I hurt you! I love you so much!"
"No you don't you're just selfish and can't handle that what you want got away before you can throw it away like last weeks trash!"
"I would never do that!"
"Hm you did it to Shawn when you came here!"
She looked around and started walking towards me. I zipped up my black ankle boots and she stood where I was sitting on my bed. She stood between my legs. I wasn't sure what was happening. She placed her hands on my neck tilting my head up and kissed me. I didn't kiss back. I immediately pulled away from her and moved her back two paces.
"No Camila! Stop being selfish admit what you've lost by being well by being selfish."
"Lauren you're being stubborn!"
"No I'm being brutally honest and frankly I'm trying to save my heart from being fooled into thinking it was in love." I let go of her shoulders and grabbed a black floppy brim fedora and black sunglasses.
"Now if youll excuse me I have a date to get to."
"WIth who?" She asks bitterly.
"Someone who will treat me right."
"She probably wont."
"Oh no trust me hun he'll treat me right and much better than you ever did."
I grabbed my phone and purse then there was a knock at the door.
"Goodbye Camila!" I say and walk out of the door where Jackson stands waiting.
"You ready gorgeous?" He kissed my cheek and off we went to town. We were both wearing hats and sunglasses so no paps would recognize us or at least me since their used to my face by now.
"Completely." I walked away from the hotel room letting go of Camila and letting go of what we had. Finally. We walked out of the hotel hand in hand into town. We walked past shops and restaurants all while talking and laughing. We went into Starbucks and got drinks then walked past fountains. We took selfies and had a great time.
"So Lauren how do you feel after telling the girls everything?" He asked as we sat on the fountain with his arms around me.
"I feel relieved and almost like a weight was lifted off my shoulders. I don't feel like theirs a wedge in each of our relationships, like I feel like the walls holding me from being completely close and comfortable with them were torn down. I feel honest, and honestly being honest feels good!"
"That's good! What are you looking forward to for this tour?"
"Well were already like a month and a half in so theres what 2 months left?"
"Yeah I think so!"
"Well I feel good because now I can spend it all with you making memories and having fun before the tours over and we both get supers busy with our careers and stuff. No one can stop us from being whataver we are and that's a great feeling."
"Well actually theres one thing!" I grew a saddened expression.
"What is it?"
"Well I have a girlfriend or at least a kind of girlfriend."
"Oh well at least no crazy ass girlfriend on my side. Who...whos your girlfriend?"
"Uhm well shes not technically my girlfriend yet!"
"But you have feelings for her?"
"Really strong!"
"SO just ask her out."
"I did!" He was just breaking my heart today.
"Oh..."
"Now I have to ask her to be my girlfriend!"
"Go for it I'm gonna support you no matter what!"
"Ok then Lauren will you be my girlfriend?"
"What? huh? What about your almost girlfriend?" He smiles and laughs at me.
"Youre so cute when your oblivious! There is no other girl Lauren. I want you and only you. I want to be the one who holds you and the one that kisses you. I want to always cuddle with you, help you when your feeling down, I want to be your boyfriend. I want to be your ace. I want you to be mine. I want to always warn guys about being too touchy with you. I want to protect you and I want to make you laugh and smile and happy. So Lauren will you be my girlfriend?" I smiled so wide in the middle of his schpeal. I grabbed his face in my hands.
"Yes!" I said before kissing him right on the lips.
"SO now you belong to me and no one else!" he says and oecks my lips again.
"Yep its just me and you!"
"Do you want to tell the girls?"
"Do you?"
"I'm not really sure I just don't want to rush you because this entire relationsip has been pushed."
"No it hasn't, it was you that had to wait for me to come to my senses. Don't feel like youre pushing this relationship at all ok? It may not be best to tell the girls yet but don't think you're forcing me into anything ok?"
"Ok babe!"
"That's right your my baby now!" I say and kiss him again. He laughs.
"My baby! Mine!" I peck his lips again.
"I can get used to this!" he said.
"Now we have to get back because we have a show tonight."
"Ok baby lets go!" He grabbed my hand and we walked all the way back to the hotel and met up with the girls at the van to the arena.
"Where have you two been?" Dinah asks smirking.
"Oh I had a date in town and we ran into each other on the way back here." I lied.
"Why is there red lipstick on your face?" Ally asks.
"Fans man!" He says suavely.
"No its not why is your cheek red?" Normani said.
"Ok I found myself an American girl!"
"Jackson Danielson did you get laid?" Only Dinah would say that.
"No but I got a few numbers!" He says covering.
"There you go Aussie get it!" Normani says.
"Who was your date with?" Camila asks bitterly.
"My new boyfriend!" I say.
"Omg who?" They all say.
"Issa secret!" I say like I did in that interview for Billboard and then jumped in the van. Everyone tried to get me to admit who it was. I didn't budge obviously.