I didn't want to go back in there.
I couldn't.
I loved her enough to wish her happiness
but it hurt too much, it hurt so fucking much.
I just stayed there where we had a paint war earlier.
I just sat on the ground.
I warmed up my vocal cords
I had to.
We had a show in a couple hours.
I just sat there and did my usual warm ups
and then started to sing
nothing in mind.
Just started to sing whatever popped into my head.
I couldn't get my mind off of her I had to stop
thinking about Bella.
I had to!
"FUCK!"
"What is it Gee?"
I was startled
"Oh shit, I thought I was alone."
"Are you okay man?"
"yeah...I guess."
"You sure?"
"No Frank...fuck man..she seems happy, thats all I want for her."
"Who?"
"But it hurts so much. But she is happy...I have to let her be happy."
"oh."
"Yeah. She is happy. And I am ...here."
"You love her don't you?"
"I have tried to lie to myself but who am I kidding? She asked me to kiss her
and I froze up man. I froze!"
"Oh man."
"Yeah.
"You know I think you should...nah never mind you might think its a bad idea."
"What? Please I need something anything to stop feeling this way."
"Well find a distraction Gerard a chick to take your mind off of her."
"that's...that's actually a good idea."
"Yeah man it will help. hopefully."
"Thanks Frank."
"Anytime Gee."
I was going to take his advice
I need anything
anything to get Bella off my mind.
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This is How I Disappear
RandomThis is the journey of a girl who loses her memory and her journey to find out the truth of who she really is and where she came from. And on the way she finds love. But can she hold on to her love when reality finds her? Disclaimer: I do not own My...