This is How I Disappear

Can't you remember?..

We went inside and all the guys were there.

"Hey Bells!! We heard about the magazine.!!"

"Yeah frank I was totally shocked."

"well we decided that we are going to go out and celebrate!! Now get prettier!"

"wait I-"

"Shush and go get prettier!!"

"But I-"

"Bells just get a new outfit on is what I think they are trying to say."

"Oh well I-"

"Bells! Prettier!!!"

"Alright frankie!"

I guess I will just put on another dress and shoes.

I wonder where they are taking me. Its so weird.

Something fell out of a jacket.

Something I haven't seen before.

A charm bracelet.

It had music stuff on it.

It seemed familiar somehow.

I just couldn't put my finger on it.

"Bells are you ready yet?"

"No Gee. Give me a couple minutes."

"Alright babe."

I got on my new outfit and shoes and went dashing for the front of the bus and put the bracelet in the pocket of my jacket.

"Where are we going?"

"You will see babe."

"No where fancy right?"

"Nah something normal for a change."

"Okay!"

We walked off in a group and me and Gerard held hands.

And we ended up going to a diner just a couple blocks away.

People in there but we got a booth in the back.

We sat and just started being ourselves.

Fun, goofy, and loud.

"guys we should tone it down we might get kicked out!"

"Who cares we are here to celebrate your magazine debut and your past shows that have rocked!! Lil sis now calm down!"

"Mikey!"

"I said relax and have fun and get the banana cream pie we are going to split it."

"hahah alright fine. We will go half way."

We were enjoying ourselves but I felt this weird felling that someone was staring at me.

Weird I know just I just couldn't shake the feeling.

I looked around and my eyes landed on a pair of bright green eyes that looked like mine.

And a guy with jet black hair like mine.

He almost looked like me. But he was a guy.

And then his eyes went wide as if he realized something.

He got up and started to come over to our table.

"Hey-um sorry to interrupt but can I have your guys autograph?"

"Uh yeah sure man just keep in on the down low we are here to celebrate and don't want to be bugged."

"Uh yeah sure Frank."

"So whats your name kid?"

"It's Matt."

Wait no.,,it can't be.

I started to take deep breathes. Gerard can start to feel my tensing up.

"babe are you okay?"

I just sat there and looked at the guy in front of us.

"Bells, sugar say something are you okay?"

I couldn't move.

"baby you are really starting to scare me say something!!"

"I umm...need some air I will be back okay?"

"Alright you don't want me to come?"

"No I will be right back. I wont take long sugar."

"Okay. I love you."

"I love you too."

I slided out of the booth and went through the back and leaned up against the wall and just stood there and thought about who I just saw.

It cant be him.

He looks like you hun. Its him alright.

How did he find me?

I don't think he expected to find you at all. Did you see the look on his face?

Yeah but. I cant go back. I don't know everything yet and I am not leaving Gerard and everyone.

Well then suck it up because here he comes.

"sis? Sis is that you? Ali?"

"I don't know who that is."

"Sis its me Matt. Cant you remember?"

"No I can't remember anything."

"Wait what?"

"I don't know who you are!"

"You have to remember. Please you have to remember this!"

He pulled out his necklace. It had music charms on it.

"see I didn't want to wear that dorky looking bracelet so I put the charms into a necklace."

I reached into my jacket pocket and pulled out my bracelet.

"See Ali. Our dad gave it to us before he died! Remember!"

"I don't remember anything!"

"Hey what the hell are you doing harassing my girlfriend?!"

"Oh I um...just thought she looked like my twin sister. I must have been confused. Bye."

I stood there planted there to the ground.

"Baby are you okay?"

I just let it out

"Bells why are you crying?"

He pulled me into his arms.

Lie.

"I don't know I guess I just find it so frustrating not remembering who I am that's all."

"Oh sugar, you will remember okay? I promise you."

"Okay."

I looked at the bracelet while Gerard was holding me.

He had the same charms as me....it is him.