This is How I Disappear

One More Thing

I walked onto the stage terrified. But calm.

The roar of the crowd was intense but I liked the feeling.

I smiled took my place to the right of Gerard and made sure my bass was in tune.

The opening guitar riffs of “This is how I disappear” started playing.

And I played my small part

And Gerard’s voice boomed.

“ALRIGHT EVERYONE, TONIGHT MY LITTLE BROTHER COULDN’T PERFORM WITH US. HE IS SICK AND WE ASKED OUR BAND’S LITTLE SISTER AND MY GIRLFRIEND MS. BELLA BLACK TO FILL IN. WILL YOU PLEASE WELCOME HER PROPERLY TO OUR BAND!!”

All I heard was this huge eruption of cheering.

I smiled and then the song took off.

Every part of the songs I moved to.

I ran across the stage and went insane.

It was incredible, its like I was feeding off of the energy of the crowd.

I was dancing and signing with Gerard.

“Can’t find my way home but it’s through you and I know, what I’d do just to get back in her arms.”

I hit every note without missing any.

Sweat was dripping out of every pore.

I got the crowd going along side frank who had more energy than me.

I went over and leaned against his back and he did the same as we played out instruments.

I fell a few times but I didn’t care I just kept going playing on the ground and got up and went back to my place and kept going.

I went to the edge of the stage and flickers of cameras went crazy.

And soon enough the music ended.

And Gerard would shout.

“WE ARE MY CHEMICAL ROMANCE AND WE WANT TO THANK YOU FOR COMING OUT TONIGHT. AND WE LOVE YOU!”

I handed my bass off the the guitar tech and ran over to Gerard and went for a hug and he lifted my off the ground and spun me around.

“You were incredible Bells!! Where did all that energy come from?”

“I don’t know I just listened to you guys and let loose and it was just amazing. It was like magic. The crowd, their energy and the music was just wow.”

“let me get you a towel and some water.”

He gave me a towel and a bottled water.

“Thanks sugar.”

I wiped myself off and took a swig.

I didn’t even realize how thirsty I was until I drank the entire bottle.

“Oh I needed that. Now why you guys do it, I would love to do that every night too.”

“Maybe one day it could happen baby.”

“You think so?”

“With your talent and energy anything is possible.”

“Thanks Gee. Where’s Mikey?!”

“Here I am!”

“hey you still feel bad?”

“Yeah but I couldn’t miss this. I got some awesome shots of you from the side of the stage. You looked amazing out there.”

“Thanks!”

I hugged him

“Eww Bells you are all sweaty. You are as grewsome as Gee.”

“Hey!”

“it’s true!”

“Well yeah.”

“haha. Let me see.”

“Oh no I am keeping these but you can have this one.”

He took polaroids of the shows saved time he said.

He handed one of me and Gerard singing together.

Oh wait and this one.

And then another of him spinning me around after the show was done.

“Oh Mikes thank you.”

“No problem just momentos of your very first show.”

“You are sweet big brother. I am beat. Can we go back to the bus gee?”

“Yeah sure come on.”

We held hands all the way back.

Mikey came with he wanted to go to sleep he needed his rest.

We went in and Mikey went to his bunk and crashed.

“goodnight guys!”

“Night Mikes!”

“Oh man gee I am going to change out of these clothes and get ready for bed.”

“Alright me too.”

I changed into my night gown and let my hair down and brushed it.

I just smiled to myself as the nights events replayed in my head over and over again.

And I went over to our bunk to find gee in his usual sleep wear waiting for me.

“Come on beautiful time for bed you earned it.”

I got in and he held me close.

“I had a great night and thank you.”

“I am glad you did and for what sugar?”

“For giving me the change to be part of the magic.”

“Anytime baby. Now sleep. You look like you are about to drop any second.”

“Nu uh..”

I yawned.

“Sure you aren’t.”

“One more thing.”

“Yeah Bells.?”

“So you love me do you?”

“Yes I do silly girl.”

“Say it again.”

“I love you Isabella Black.”

“I love you too Gerard Way.”

We smiled at each other.

And he broke the silence

“Goodnight sugar.”

“Goodnight.”

I feel asleep.

But I dreamt of something that would piece the mystery of who I was, before I got here.

Something…I wanted to forget as soon as I remembered.