This is How I Disappear

And will he see how much he means to me?..

I ran my fingers through his hair.

And he grabbed my waist and brought me closer to him.

If it were any possible.

His tongue licked my bottom lip as if asking for permission.

I let him have it.

His tongue explored my mouth.

He has such a sweet taste.

I couldn't help but let out a little moan

He smiled into the kiss.

I pulled back and he just stared at me, with a huge smile on his face.

"Gerard...we shouldn't be doing this."

"I know...but we can't help how we feel."

"That's what makes it worse."

"Yeah."

His hand went to the back of my dress and started to unzip it.

"Gerard Way! What are you doing?!!"

"If we cant be together let me show you what you are giving up then..."

He got it all the way down to the bottom.

"Gerard no.."

His hands were feeling my back. Running up and down.

"Please...n-no Gee."

I melted under his touch.

He was about to pull my dress off when someone knocked at the door.

"Hey Izzy. Are you okay?"

"Ye-Yeah Ali I am okay I just want to be alone right now."

"Alright just call if you need anything."

"Okay!"

I snapped back to reality

"Gee I can't do this...I can't do this to Bob and you are with Alexis, that stupid bleach blonde."

"I know...even though I don't like her. She makes me forget about you."

"Gee-Gerard you don't want to be with me. I-I come with problems."

"I don't care. I lo-"

"Don't please I won't let you go if you say it. Don't"

"Okay. I guess we can just try our hardest to be friends."

"How about my best friend?"

"Alright. Even though you know I want more I will settle for that."

"ok."

"I think you should leave."

"Alright."

He gave me one last kiss and started to head out the door.

And before he left the room I started to change.

"Bella can we-"

I was in my bra and panties and he was staring at me.

I blushed.

"walk out the door Gerard because this is all you are ever gonna see."

"Hold on....okay. I will see you tomorrow then."

"Goodnight Gee."

"Goodnight Bells."

Over the next couple of weeks me and Gerard hung out in secret.