This is How I Disappear

Always and Forever

There was laughter and suck happiness everywhere.

Kids smiling and enjoying themselves, families playing the games.

And the people just having such happy expressions on their faces.

"I can't believe you Gerard. How did you find out about this?"

"We I asked the crew guys of they saw interesting places I can take you on a date this morning and they said they saw this on the drive in."

"Well I know for sure I am going to have fun tonight. Everyone loves carnivals."

"Good now come!"

We went all over the place.

It's a good thing I wore comfortable shoes.

We went to play water gun games and I won him a stuffed bear.

Yeah I won him something lol.

When we headed over to the win a fish but we had no luck.

We rode some rides and then the tea cups!!

Oh gosh my head was still spinning after we got off.

We went to get some lemonade and some cotton candy,

And we strutted into the house of mirrors and dare I say we looked all kinds of weird.

I never remember laughing this much before or having such a good time.

Our feet started to hurt after that much running around that we decided to go on the Ferris wheel.

"Shall we my dear?"

"Of course."

We got in and the carnie secured our seats.

And we went off.

I had the greatest view of Portland.

The lights of the rides and the city.

I was just in awe.

"Oh my. This is so beautiful."

"Yeah. You are."

What did he say?

"What?"

"You heard me sugar. I said you are beautiful."

"Gee..I-um."

Oh no.

Please oh no.

The blush is coming.

"Baby are you blushing."

"N-No! maybe....yeah"

"Are you so easy to make blush."

"No I am not."

"Oh is that so?"

"Yeah."

"Then why are you blushing now?"

"Because I only blush around you."

"Really?"

He reached over and touched my face.

And rubbed my cheek with his thumb.

"You are the only one I want. Don't you see that sugar?"

"I kind of am now."

"Good. I will be here. Always."

"Always?"

"Yeah always and forever."

He leaned and I didn't stop him.

And soon enough his lips were moving with mine.

He grabbed my face and held it closer to his.

I didn't want this to end.

Our lips moved together in sync.

And he pulled back and smirked.

My breathing was a little fast.

"whoa."

"Bells?.."

"Yeah Gee?"

"Will you on this ferris, with these bright dazzling lights of Portland."

"Yeah?"

"Will you be my girlfriend?"

Are you thinking about this?!!

I am? Oh shit I am!

Answer woman!!!

"Yes!"

He smiled and I blushed

"You have made me the happiest man in the world."

"Is that so?"

"Yeah you have and you know what I am going to do?"

"No what?"

"I am going to tell the world."

"How?"

"Like this! HEY EVERYBODY THIS WONDERFUL, AMAZING GIRL JUST AGREED TO BE MY GIRLFRIEND!!!!!"

Cheers erupted from every other carriage on the wheel

"You are on silly, unpredictable, amazing guy Gerard Way and thank god you are my boyfriend."

"Oh baby thank you. You are just too amazing for words."

And we continued where we left off.

Kissing on the ferris wheel above those twinkling lights.

After we got off we walked hands together with smiles on our faces.

We got back to the bus and everyone was asleep.

I changed into my night gown and Gerard into his shirt and pajama bottoms.

"Thank you for the lovely date boyfriend."

"Anytime girlfriend."

"Can I ask you for something?"

"Anything baby what is it?"

"Can I sleep in your bunk with you? Sleeping alone freaks me out a bit."

"Of course sugar. Come here."

He got in first and then I got in.

He wrapped his arms around me and brought me close to him.

"Sing to me Gee."

"Any requests baby?"

"You know what song to sing."

"Of course I do."

He sang my favorite.

And I feel asleep with a smile on my face.

I was happy.

I was with the love of my life.