"Hey guys I am gonna go for a walk."
"You starting to look pale hun, I think a bit of sun will do you good."
"Ha ha, I will be back."
"Okay. We are going to go out we will be gone for a while but the bus will be open okay?"
"Alright."
I walked off the bus and plugged in my iPod.
I started off where I left off, Beatles.
I started singing along, I couldn't help it.
I loved the song
"Words are flowing out
like rain into a paper cup
they slither while they pass
they slip away across the universe
pools of sorrow waves of joy
are drifting through my open mind
possessing me and caressing me
Lai guru deva, om
nothing's going to change my world
nothing's going to change my world
images of broken light
which dance before me like a million eyes
they call me on and on across the universe
thoughts meander like a restless wind
inside a letter box
they tumble blindly as they make their way
across the universe
Nothing's gonna change...."
Then I saw it
the thing that would change my world
Hazel eyes
kissing another girl
he was...kissing another girl
I couldn't believe it
and then something else
came to my mind.
"Love you! ha! like I love you!! I should have had that abortion instead of having you!! I don't love you!!"
I ran
I ran like hell
I ran until my lungs stung and I was sweating
I ran until I felt a hand grab my arm
I turned about and saw those hazel eyes
look at me with sorrow in them
and almost pain
"Wait Bella please, let me explain, she is nothing to me"
it sure didn't look like nothing
"You don't have to explain anything to me, I am not your girlfriend."
I wish I was but I am not.
I keep my eyes on the ground
I couldn't look at those eyes
"I know but hey look at me."
I couldn't I couldn't, I wanted to cry
he put a finger under my chin and lifted my head to look at him, and I still couldn't.
"baby look at me."
my eyes shot straight to his.
"Don't call me that."
"Why?"
because it hurts, it hurts so much, and I am with Bob
"Because I- because I L-, Because I Lo-"
No I can't tell him
"because you what Bella?"
I can't tell him I feel something for him
"I can't"
and I ran again
and then it went dark.
I woke up to find myself in Gerard's bunk and him stting in a chair.
"Gerard?"
"Oh thank god, you are okay."
"Yeah....what happened?"
"I don't know. You just blacked out on me."
"Oh sorry I just, I don't know what happened."
"I am just glad you are okay. I should...go."
"No please, don't go...I don't want to be alone right now."
"Where is Bob?"
"He and the guys went out, so please stay."
"Okay."
"Can you do something for me?"
"Anything what sugar?"
"Sing to me."
"What?"
"Sing to me please? I need to calm down, just sing something."
"Sure. any re-"
"Anything by The Beatles."
And he began,
"I read the news today, oh boy.
About a lucky man who made the grade."
His voice always calmed me down
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This is How I Disappear
RandomThis is the journey of a girl who loses her memory and her journey to find out the truth of who she really is and where she came from. And on the way she finds love. But can she hold on to her love when reality finds her? Disclaimer: I do not own My...
