This Weird Feeling (Steven Universe Fanfic) This Feeling Book #1

Chapter 18: Apology

Peridot's P.O.V:

"ARGH!" I growl and I kick the door. "Why oh why Steven!?"

"He listened to my recorder! Clod!" I growl.

I was so stupid to keep the recorder in here! Ugh!

He's gonna assume something, something I gotta crack my gem for.

"I'm a stupid.. A stupid clod!" I hear Steven growl.

Well he is a stupid clod for invading my privacy!

I sigh. I can't stay mad at him forever, I have to calm down and relax for a while.

My recorder is like my diary, he can't just listen to it, everything I say on there is my whole experience.

"Why am I such a clod!?" Steven growls from the outside.

I don't get it!

"I'm a freaking clod!" Steven growls once again.

Why is he madder than me? I mean I should be the one who's the maddest one because he invaded my privacy!

Guilt.

The thought of being guilty repeats through my thoughts. He's guilty for what he has done?

"Why do I invade privacies so much?" Steven asks himself. "I mean, I want to know everything I'm not supposed to know."

He does that? He does that?

I gotta get out there, I overreact too much. Here goes..

I open the door and I find Steven lying on the couch. He turns his head to me and "AH!"

"Oh, it's just you." Steven says.

"Look I'm sorry I overreacted." I apologize. Though it was him who broke my rules.

"W-W-What?"
"No, no, no! Don't be! I should be the one who has to say sorry. I wanted to know more about the song so badly because I think it was about m-"
Steven clears his throat. "I thought it was about someone so I wanted to know."

"Actually it was just words I came up with. I accept your apology." I reply. I lied because Steven doesn't even feel the same way about me, he probably loves Connie.

"So, do you want go to Funland later?" Steven asks.

"Yeah!" I exclaim. My one and only chance to tell him how I feel without the clod you know who. Connie.

Steven raises up his hand and smiles at me.

We stare at each other awkwardly and Steven starts sweating. "High five!"

"High what?" I ask. Human rituals.

"High five! A gesture of celebration or greeting in which two people slap each other's open palm with their arms raised. It's pretty easy." Steven explains.

I slap his hand with an open palm. "High five?"

"Yeah! But you should be more.. you know.. cheerful?" Steven says.

"High five!" I've done it again.

"Yeah!" Steven exclaims "I should get ready for tonight. You should too."

"Aren't you gonna eat?" I ask. Humans eat for energy and hunger.

"No. I ate when you locked yourself in the bathroom." Steven says and chuckles. He rubs the back of his head and goes to the bathroom.

Connie is gonna be there. Argh. We're going to see each other's faces and sing kumbaya! Human expressions are fun to say.

I look at myself on the mirror. I see Connie on the mirror, smiling evilly with Rose's sword.

"What?!" I exclaim and I turn around. There's no one here. I laugh at my foolishness.

Connie is perfect for Steven. She's like, his best friend and her eyes are perfect. She's perfect!

And me? A little green gem who roams around Earth accompanied by other gems and... Steven.

~Flashback~

"Steven I'm sorry I couldn't save you and billions of other life forms who matter far less to me! Do you have any last words!?" I exclaimed.

"I love you, Peridot."

~Flashback ends~

I shake my head. I think it stopped.

I sigh. I'm sure he didn't mean it romantically.

That moment when we drilled to the cluster. Where we thought it is the end. The thoughts of him saying that he loves me runs through my head.

"Get out of my mind!"

"Peri?"

I turn around and I blush. "Steven!"

"It's okay, you don't have to tell me if you don't want to." Steven says and smiles.

I sigh in relief. "Thanks."

What a perfect timing!

"Connie's dressing up, I should dress up too, my shirt is stinky." Steven laughs and goes back in the bathroom with a new T-Shirt.

Connie.

Connie.

Connie!

The thought of Connie runs through my head. I hope this night goes well.