Keeping You

Five

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As I got ready for bed I was thinking about Niall. I didn’t get how he came into my life so easily and was already getting to me. I spent so much time closing myself off. Niall came in and already has me feeling things I’ve never even felt before.

He made me nervous and he made my stomach twist, but in a good way. At least I think it’s a good way. No matter how cold I am, he still talks to me. I like talking to him.

I admit he is really cute. That’s the main reason I wonder why he wants anything to do with me.

He wants to go out with me, in public. That’s when I thought, what if someone that knows me sees? What if they say something to me? Niall will for sure know how pathetic I am.

I realized I don’t have anything to wear, nothing at all. Maybe I should just cancel. I can’t go on dates when I should be working or doing homework. I should just take an extra shift at work.

*Niall?* I texted.

I changed into my pajamas and I could feel my body shaking with nerves. I was feeling horrible.

*Hey, what’s up?*

I took a deep breath.

*I can’t go out with you.*

*Why? Did I do something?*

*I just can’t I should really be taking extra shifts at work or doing school work. I don’t have time to date.*

I shut off my light and sat in bed. The light from my phone filled the dark room.

*So you don’t have time? Why’d you say yes then?*

*No I don’t have time. I should really just stay home and work on homework. I’m having trouble with my math class and I need to stay focused. I said yes because I wasn’t thinking.*

I rubbed my face and flopped down. I felt bad. My heart hurt for this kid. I shouldn’t have said yes. I’m too fucked up to be getting close to anyone. I need to stay away from anyone that will keep me distracted and he was so good at distracting me.

*Whatever Opal. I’ll see you at work on Sunday.*

I sighed.

*I’m sorry Niall. You just don’t get it.*

*Maybe if you weren’t so bitchy and talked to me, I would understand, but right now I just feel like you think you’re better than me.*

Me? better than him?

*That’s not true. I don’t think that at all. I’m sorry*

I waited another hour for him to reply but I received nothing. I groaned with frustration as I tried to fall asleep. I now have no one. I lost the only person who I was starting think could be my friend.

I woke up only a few hours later. I got ready for school and headed to the bus stop. It had rained last night so there were puddles in the curb gutters. As the bus stopped, my shoes were drenched. I got on board and sat down.