{supernatural}
[sorry - castiel novak x reader]
"castiel i don't need your fucking help just leave me alone you've already fucked enough up" you muttered, pushing him out of the way. his lips parted open, eyebrows furrowed.
"(y/n) look I'm so-"
"you're sorry. sure. you're not sorry cass. cass you're just fucking guilty about all this shit. you thought he was the one? you fucking killed him cass. you stabbed him in the heart. the last words i ever said to him was i hate you! do you know how much that hurts? how much that fuckng tears you apart? knowing that he died- he died thinking that i hated him! i loved him! we were in love! and you killed him! I-" you sobbed, your voice choking on the words before they could leave your mouth. you tried to rush out the door, but Castiel's arm gripped your frail fingers.
"i didn't mean to i thought he was-"
"cass- you- you took- you took everything from me, everything! my lover, my parents, my brother! you were- you were reckless and stupid and buyout think it's all going to b fixed by your blue eyes and a simple sorry? It's going to take a hell of a lot more than that to apologize to me you sick bastar-" before you could finish, Castiel kissed you, hard. You were shocked, and stumbled to push him away.
"i- I'm sorry (y/n) i don't know why i did that I've never felt this way i-" you gasped for air before he could finish his sentence, leaving a broken-faced cass in the empty hotel room, your stuff still on the floor.
he touched his lips gently, unable to understand the emotion that had surged through his veins the first time he saw you.
*a few hours later*
Cass entered the bunk, muttering under his breath. His eyes didn't register you until he felt you on his lips, and your hand instinctively to the back of his head. Cass's lips were bruised, and he was intoxicatedly giddy and the single thought of you kissing him, much less the reality. He pulled away, hands reaching back to his lips.
"What was- that- that feeling- that energy- i-?" Cass was barely able to stutter out, his eyes trailing up the floor into your (e/c) ones.
"i don't know why i did that I'm sorry-" you were about to walk away, when Cass gripped your hips again.
"I'm sorry for everything. I didn't mean to hurt him, i didn't realize that he had sealed himself to all of you. I didn't know you two were- i just thought- yes. i was reckless and stupid and horrible and i should've just thought for one second on what i was doing and maybe we wouldn't be here like this but then maybe you wouldn't be so heartbroken over this because it truly just is my fault and i just want to say that i am so just so sor-" you cut him off again, placing a rushed kiss to his lips and turning away.
"it's fine cass- i just have to go. i need time to think about all of this." you say and start to walk away.
" i think i love you" he whispered, barely loud enough for you to hear, and yet somehow you did. you smiled slightly and wiped your eyes, slipping out of the door.
