Syn's POV
I laid my head back on the sofa, blankly staring up at the ceiling.
Val caught me staring again.
I hate it when she catches me.
She gets that pitiful, sympathetic look on her face.
I hate that.
The last thing I need is pity.
She probably still thinks I'm hung up on Michelle.
It finally doesn't hurt to say her name.
I can actually think about her now and not feel like my heart is being ripped out and run over by a train.
When Val catches me looking, she thinks I'm thinking about me and her sister.
That's why she looks at me with that look.
But she's got it all wrong.
I envy what her and Matt have.
I want what they have.
I thought I had that with Michelle but I was wrong.
She said I was her soulmate.
I was stupid enought to believe her and I got my heart broken for it.
Some soulmate right?
If that's what a soulmate is I'd rather be alone for the rest of my life.
It's just not worth the pain.
I want what Matt and Val have but I don't want it with Michelle anymore.
I'm a good man and I know that.
If she was stupid enough to fuck up what we had then she can go straight to hell.
I don't need her.
Maybe this trip will be a good idea.
I sooo need to get laid.
I know people don't understand how I can sleep with so many girls and just drop them when I'm done.
It's just easier then being with someone permanent.
A lot less heart ache.
I can get what I want and then send them packing.
I can't live like that forever though.
I know that.
One day there will be that one girl who will change me in more ways then one.
One who will make me happier then I have ever been.
Who will love me like no one else has.
The question is when will I find her and will I be smart enough to hold on to her tight and never let go?
