[Old and Unreadable] Max's Thought-Provoking Poetry

My Tortured Soul

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What is truly inside of me?
Just waiting to break free?
My world keeps tangling
Still, it's twisting and tangling without an end in sight
You laugh
Always laughing in a tragic hypocrisy
Cause we can't see beyond the black and white
Colourblind yet painfully vivid

Please, free my soul
Unravel and purge, give me control
Oh, please, free my poor soul
And give me a true, perfect control

Each breath is a struggle once more
Perhaps this is my last, or a tease?
In desperate need of a feeble freedom
To just make reality freeze
Cause I'm breakable, yet unbreakable
I'm shakeable, yet unshakable
I'm fine, yet walking blind
It has finally driven me out of my mind

Break down this world around me
Quickly, before it pulls me under
Unravel, purge and give me control
I'm done with your teasing "wonder"

But after all this, I fear it is too late
I beg you to give up your searching;
I no longer want to be found
You would torture me now, more hurting
I've lost grasp on reality and it has changed me
I'm not the same, don't call my name
I'm to blame, I'm truly insane
I'll just taint you, I'm a sucker for pain

But if you must see
look through your memory
That's where I will live on...
The one with the broken, wandering soul

This loneliness is infinite
It's always preying on the innocent
And I can't burn out the memory
My screams fell on deaf ears
Inside I've been shaken
my sanity taken
Our fractured realities intertwine
One was yours and one was mine

I'll just crumble here
Enjoying the pain of my wretched existence
Consuming this life till as I grow distant
Don't bother searching for the past "me"

Don't forget me
Never forget
My mind has seized up as if it would paralyse
I'm not asking you to join me in this hellish paradise
But look through your memory...
Unravel my tortured soul
Let me pay this torturous tole

I'm fading, the world has ruined me
I don't want to hurt you; It's not in my nature
But this monster of misery can't be your saviour
Just remember the "me", the way I used to be

This is pointless
And the end, I ask for you to excuse me
Excuse me, please
For the monster I have become
My soul is broken, may never unfurl
But it's not what's wrong with me that's the problem
It's what's wrong with the world...

Inspired by Tokyo Ghoul~