Memoirs of a Broke B*tch

Bruh

7/26/17

I know my entries are usually all over the place, but there's always some kind of order to it.

Not today though.

Here are my random thoughts of pretty much the last few days.

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My cousin is so addicted to Doritos it doesn't make any sense. Girl, I understand, because they're my favorite kind of chips too.

Why the fuck does he have to eat half the bag in one sitting, though? FAM!

Then my aunt be sitting there, wondering why the chips only last a day and a half! Because of her son! Annoying ass.

Meanwhile, she keeps asking me about this test I gotta take. I'ma take it, but I am SHOOK!!

My hair is actually sexy AF when I retwist it. I don't know what it is, but right after I'm done with that, I fall in love with it all over again. If I were patient enough, I'd get my brows threaded to go right with this fresh retwist but I staaaaaaaaaay fucking with them.

I went back "home" this week and was very disappointed. Don't you hate when people act like the reason their life is bad is because of other people? That helped me realize something about myself. I never thought my life was bad or horrible anything, but I definitely blamed my sucky college experience on everyone else and I shouldn't have. It's like, seeing other people do the annoying things that you do, annoys you even more lol. 

Also, I have accepted that I am a junky person by nature. I ain't ever gon' be a neat freak, and I don't know what it would take to TRAIN me to be one lol. I went to my mom's house and there was stuff everywhere, I visited my aunt's (Linda*)house and there was stuff everywhere, I went into their rooms and there was stuff everywhere. The only one who doesn't have any clutter anywhere is my other aunt(Goldie*), who I live with lol. Between me, Goldie, and my boy cousin, I might be the most junky, but that's up for debate. Once my aunt stops doing things for him, everything will go to shit for him as far as laundry and cleaning. Do you know this boy barely touches the dishes?? I been out here washing my own stuff since like, 11. THIS BWOY DAMN NEAR GROWN lol. Yeah, I'm a lil jelly.

It's funny cuz my sister called me and told me she was learning to drive. When I told him my cousin was already driving and I was going to learn soon, she was P I S S E D lol. When he was young, he was stingy with all his new toys and whatever and my sister never forgot that. He was a lil rude hoe when he was younger but I mean, who cares at this point. I'm only a little perturbed that I started to live with her after I was grown enough to buy my own stuff lol. It's cool though, my upbringing taught me you can't have everything.  My cousin has a little harder of a time learning and accepting that lol.

My room is cold af. CHEEZUS TYRONE CUHRIGHST!

I have listened to Acquainted by The Weeknd at least 13 times in the span of about two or so hours lol.

I'm in one of those ...moods and it's funny because I never understood why people wanted to GET THAT BACK BROKE IN to music. Then I heard Promise by Ciara. And Slow by Jamie Foxx. And Acquainted. I see the light lol. Gawd bless the lady that decides she wants a piece of this 'cause... yeah.

Oh, and how awkward is it when your little sister posts statuses regarding to getting that back broke in? My mom was like "uhh... why is she doing that?" and I was like "idk fam, idk. 

I tried to open my second lip piercing back up. It hurts like a bitch every time I open it back up, but I can usually do it. Until I buy a new lip ring, I'll probably only keep the earring on in the daytime. for what reason, i don't know.

I can't decide whether I actually want to be with a person or not. Like, do I really want somebody all in my face 24/7 or nah? Like, I'm gonna be on my own once I graduate college, and it would make more sense for me to seriously consider dating then. 'Course, sometimes I do think it would be cool to have somebody to like you and all that good jazz, but also, I don't get frustrated (if they're men, i do get frustrated* lol) that I haven't had a REAL gf cuz I have nothing to offer her except a joke and these thighs, yk? I think once I build myself up and get myself stable, then I'll think more about that then. Starting to think I'm gonna be a dog/cat mom and that's it lol. Honestly, that sounds lit, too! Have me a piece to come through every so often, and then go the fuck back home?! That sounds heavenly lmao.

*Linda and Goldie are not their real names

*so far only men (and not that many ctfu) have shown interest in me. Sir, I'm a fag. Why are you bothering me?

Sorry if some of this info was TMI. Okay my back hurts. Bye.