Memoirs of a Broke B*tch

Fall Semester Over/ Dream

Hey, girl. We back. I don't know why I didn't update while I was in school. I can't remember much except I can't remember enjoying it a lot and I was so close to "failing" some classes. I mean, my grades were all good but you know how prerequisites in your major courses are. Eyeeee rollllll. Either way, I passed everything and I have three classes left until I graduate. I'll try to stay positive. What's the point in focusing on the negative? I'm literally almost done. I'll be okay, lol. Still unsure about what will happen after. Grad school? Workforce? Decisions, decisions.

Anyway, on to the next topic. Dreams!!!
I'm always having some weird dreams. I don't know why but they're always funny and random. A few have been kind of scary, too, but only in the sense of I NEVER want these events to happen in real life. I don't think I've had a dream where my life was threatened or something horrid in a long time. I have had dreams in which my FREEDOM was threatened, though. Remember when I said there was a dead body outside of my dorm room and then I pulled it in my room, trying to save him? But I didn't and I was waiting on the right time to tell everyone? Whew dream me is a mess. Speaking of dream me being a mess, let me tell you about one of my more recent ones.
Y'all already know how I am with like "crushes" and people I find attractive and all of that. They kind of stay on your mind. Apparently, my mind never stopped because I had a dream about one of them. Anyway, here's a list of characters.

Crush: Lolo
Bestie: Bree
Random ass Guest Appearance: Crissle

So, i think I was already over Bree's house. I remember the house being HUGE. Bree was not by herself, so I think her and Crissle were just chilling at the house as well. They were not together, I think they were related or something. Whatever. For whatever reason, Lolo suddenly shows up in the living room. Of course, I'm looking at her up and down but I'm trying to keep it discreet. It seems like Lolo already knew I liked her, but neither Bree or Crissle believed her. So, we all exchange pleasantries and Lolo finally sits down. I think I was standing up the whole time. I moved to another room, but you could still see Lolo through the doorway. For whatever reason, every time she'd catch me glancing at her, she'd be like "look at her!", trying to expose me lmfaooooo. I don't know WHY but I would keep moving to different rooms, so Bree and Crissle wouldn't know that's what I was doing. Anytime Lolo suggested I was into her, I had an insult or a rebuttal for that ass.   Then I guess I got enough of that and me and Crissle started to walk around the house. And all over the walls we could see pictures with different names like "Aidyn" or "Jaden" or something. I don't know why but there were a bunch of framed pictures of what we called "white baby names". The last thing I can remember before waking up was talking with her about these posters. I woke up kind of laughing because of COURSE I had a dream of being exposed as liking somebody. I can't even be the baddest bitch who gets every chick she wants in her damn dreams! Mess. Also, please know that I don't be doing all of that obvious stuff in real life lol. I think Lolo popped up in my dream because I was scrolling Instagram before I dozed off. Her fine ass must have popped up on my feed or something. I think Crissle popped up because I fall asleep listening to The Read (podcast) EVERY night. Every so often whatever I'm hearing while asleep will creep and work its way into my dream and upon realization I wake up right after. Could've used a few more hours to play eye tag with Lolo but I mean, whatever lol. I had taken a nap basically so I hadn't slept for longer than an hour and a half at that point.

Another dream happened with another person I know of via Instagram lmao. In the story she was my cousin, unsure of why. Anyway, I was dog sitting for her. I think it was a golden retriever and I kept calling her Goldie. I think there was more than one dog though. I opened the door a lil bit and here goes Goldie, slipping out. So I'm out there trying to coax her back inside. Goldie was NOT playing with me. She ran down the street and I was catching up. I slow down because I see Goldie stopped. Then she hauls ASS in the opposite direction . I chased her until I could no longer see where she went. I'm walking all through the street and everything! So then I go back to the crib, and I explain to my cousin. Well call her Jay. What a vague stud name. Jay. Anyway, in real life Jay's a dancer. I'm explaining what happened to the dog with her and I guess she mentioned calling animal control or something to find her. She wasn't panicked or anything. And when she was talking, I looked at her face real closely and noticed how familiar she looked to real world me 😂. I woke up and remembered how she looked in my dream like "she kinda slays!". It was interesting because when I was in cousin mode, seemingly "knowing" we were related in my dream, I didn't pay attention to anything she had going on. And I saw everything but I was not attracted in the least bit. But then I woke up and realized she was fine. AF.
Isn't it so weird how we recognize stuff happening in our dreams as "fact", even though you know it isn't immediately after. mess. No more dreams where fine people end up being my cousin. thankssss.

bye.