Adamantine

Chapter 29

Confession

"Dapat hindi na ako sumama sa Australia!" Marga groaned dramatically.

"Sandali! Single ba ang kapatid ni Lyon?" Tanong naman ni Ediza.

I just watch my four friends. Kiara had taken photos of Zeus. Kanina niya pa pinaiinggit itong sina Marga, Kim at Ediza.

Kiara pouted. "Hindi ko alam. But, I think he has."

Naging matamlay silang apat. "Ano ba iyan? Kailan ba tayo magkaka-lovelife tulad nang iba dyan!" Parinig ni Kim.

Nginisihan ko lang sila. The rest of the trip was really fun especially the Canyoneering part.

Naaalala ko tuloy ang pagmumura ni Lyon kapag masyadong extreme ang ginawa namin.

"Hayaan niyo iyan!" Ani Kiara. "Kinikilig iyan kay Lyon!"

Napailing na lang ako sa kanila. I cannot say I'm in love with Lyon. I think I'm not ready for that. Ngayon lang ako nakapasok sa ganitong relasyon. But, I am developing my feelings for him and as time goes by things become clearer to me. I like him. I feel lighthearted when I am with him.

Matapos ang buong araw na klase ay naisipan muna namin ni Lyon na kumain sa isang restaurant bago dumiretso sa opisina.

While we silently eat, I would glance at him. He just seriously eats his food.

How can he do that? How can he perform well in class while he is one of the managers in the company? Ako nga nahihirapan kahit pang-subordinate lang ang trabaho ko.

I admire him for that.

Parang noon lang na halos lahat nang nakikita ko sa kanya mali! Ngayon naman ay nakikita ko na ang mabuti sa kanya.

"Say, why were you rude when we first met?" Kuryoso kong tanong. Kahit noon pa man ay gusto ko nang malaman iyon.

"Because, I don't like you when we first met," he said, frankly.

"Then, when did you start liking me?" I asked.

"Nang pinilosopo mo ako." Despite that it's a statement, his answer sounds like a question to me.

"What?" Bahagyang kumunot ang noo ko.

"You are interesting, Yestia," aniya. "And unpredictable sometimes." Iniwas niya ang kanyang tingin.

I can't help but smile at him.

"How about you? When will you start liking me?" Asked he, still not meeting my gaze.

I was taken aback by the question. He has always been straight to the point. Kung anong iniisip niya sinasabi niya.

"I don't know." I shrugged. "Naiinip ka na ba?"

"No," he answered immediately.

That was a relief, though. Gusto ko siya pero takot akong ma-attach sa kanya. It's not that I have trust issues. Takot lang akong maiwan ulit. If I would give in and something will go wrong, it will surely hurt.

I can handle pain but that doesn't mean I want to feel pain over and over again.

Although, I never known it. I never realized that I was actually already attached to him. All I thought my feelings for him were just shallow and are still beginning to grow. I was wrong. My feelings for him were already deeply rooted in my heart. It was hard to take off.

That was the last date we had. It was not planned or romantic. It was just on the spot. But, it was unforgettable.

I did the same thing again. I did not tell him or made him feel that I actually love him. I was filled with regret.